~I Afraid Of Darkness~

FT Island at City Suqare 16 JAN 2012

2012-01-16T06:39:00.001-08:00

16 Jan 2012 , Monday

Today went to City Square because I wanna to watch FT Island , Lee Hong Ki !!! <3 My 3th Oppa

Haha running up and down ... Running there and here... In the end I did really see them .. But Joanne & Julieann did saw them ... & my oppa Hong Ki waved at JOANNE YOU JIA HUI !! I'm so jealous after i knew that... cos they both only accompany me to there !! In the end they also a bit fall in love with HONG KI !! <3 guess only luh haha good bye i'm going to watch my INBORN PAIR DRAMA <3 ^^

15 Jan 2012 , Sunday

I'm so happy when my sis said that my san shu told her when kenjee was sleeping half way at the night. He suddenly wake up and cried ... He said ... Jie Rebecca Jie Rebecca ..... HAHA HE MISS ME WOR !! ~ Although it was only just one time . But that's made me happy the whole night of YESTERDAY ! <3

2011-12-31T21:59:00.000-08:00

Today is a new year & a new start of my 16 year old life... This year is going to be busy with my N level . My last year 31 Dec 2011 I spend in Thailand, Bangkok ... 555 ... So far I'm not enjoy my day here . This five days I not fun at all ... Because of my sis & her friends sigh ~

30 Dec 11

I on my way to 7-11 ... While on the motor I saw Snake ... Omg, near my uncle house... So scary~

I still can remember the snake face... Erm... >< dam long

Fighting again liao .. My sister hot liao brb

I'm here to tell you my Blog is still Alive till NOW

2011-12-22T11:18:00.000-08:00

It have been a long time since I have update my blog....

This year holidays I have been working and working none stop on Dec ... Nov is half half (Still got some rest)

But Dec is really very tired for me ...

2 Dec 2011 Work HP Photo Center from morning till Night... & that day we need a lot of people.. Because something happened. Mmm, then I can't find anybody.... So, in the end i called Tinghong.... He find GuangYan to help me... Erm.... Oh Yeah ~ TH & GY go Buona Vista ... & I will remain at Queenstown.... hahas I like that.

Oh Almost forget to thanks TingHong... Thank that he lent me $10 to change Ringgit... cos i need $20.70 to change to 50 ringgit ... Plus the money changer don have small ringgit already.

[ I got A bit don't understand what I'm typing.. hehe ]

But this school project have changed my Life in HP Photo Center.

My Boss, MR CHIN is very nice to me... & Vivian 2 Dec both of them asked me the same thing. Do you have even money to go Malaysia tomorrow? Wahahaha I'm that they asked me that but actually I have enough thanks to me Mum & Dad ... Since the day I started to work in HP Photo Center & Pizza Hut I had learnt a lot of things... Like money is not easy to earn... Now I know what is call 'Money is not easy to earn'. ALREADY !

3 Dec Morning pack stuffs after that go to Joanne house... Cos i'm going Malaysia with her aunt family & her mum... That's weird right? Mmm, I know .. haha But to be honest I'm okayys with Joanne Family :]

I enjoy my 5days 4nights at KL & Greeting ... I bought a lot of T-shirt at KL... Oh yeah Joanne Aunt bought a very nice Ring for me ...

& i ask bryan to buy one heart Necklet for her mum .. & I can see tht her mum is very happy on tht day

I had a """"""" GOOD TIME WITH JOANNE YOU JIA HUI !!!!!!!!!!!!!! """""""""" THANKS TO HER THAT I'M NOT SCARE OF HIGH NOW !

& last day in i fall a sick ... That's made me very sad... Full of nice food in front of me .. but i can't eat a lot cos im sick ... Mmmm, 2 Dec while working i also feel a bit sick but go home rest awhile i feeling better.

come back singapore i rest at home for one day den 9Dec go back to work .. till now 22 Dec still working . Everyday work never stop i wanna stop but can't cause school project haven finish .

I really don't what to do now .. I trust myself . I can still take it .. Although now no rest . but 28 Dec can rest already . Cause morning i will be flying to Bangkok ... First week won't be going to school .

Cos i will be back on 7 Jan 2012 ... 31 Dec 2011 I will be in THAILAND !! With cousin, sister, grandma, uncle, sis friends & aunt family ...

Actually, I should go Bangkok on 31 Oct 2011 to 22 Dec 2011 come back but because the FLOOD i change to 28 Dec and go with me sister .. But different time and different Airplane ...

Me Jetstar but paid $400 ... Sister THAI AIRLINE ( GOOD PLANE ) $ 300 ONLY ...

What the hell sia ! But nvm ... Every have past . Just work now after that rest at bangkok come back chiong my STUDIES !!! ~ N Level next year . Mmmm, Thanks to Everyone ! ~

*** Money is different to earn... Therefore, study hard now and get a good pay in the future !

--- Pay Now or Play Later .......... Play Now or Pay Later ---

Your Mum & Dad have worked so hard just because you !! (They're Cutest & Lovely Child)

Lord give you a place that you can call 'HOME'... So when you grow up you have to take care the PEOPLE WHO LIVE IN THIS HOME !! NEVER EVER THROW THEM TO THE "ANOTHER PLACE THAT ALSO CAN HOME "

Can't your Mum & Dad won't like that home at all . They only like the home that you're in there for them ~

I have been thinking of a lot of things nowadays... Old, Young, Family, Friends & Many more ..................

Mmmm, Already 0415am ... Today is 23th Dec 2011 is our 23 Loveee de 1year 3months....

Justin Ng R.I.P ... Your family loves you forever... Although I didn't see you before ... But i still wish you all the best . Cos you're someone that very nice !! ~ >.< ~

11.11.11 what a year,month & day !

2011-11-11T02:25:00.000-08:00

Today is 11.11.11 ... Is a good day to go out and enjoy with your friends or boyfriend ... But i did have a lot of thing to do today.

But because of overslept... I didnt wake up at 11:11am to make my wish! I'm so sad right now .

My plan is to go for CCA, D&T Project after that church . den after church go out with friends. after that .. Becos i woke up at 6pm . All my plan are destroy ! Grrr ! I hate it . 11:11pm can make my wish ??? will it come true ? Will it ?

I'm really so tired of not waking up on time this few weeks... I shall sleep at living room . so that i will wake up on time . !! Sleep in room can make me sleep for 12h or more ~ Grrr angry ><

if bangkok don have flood i will be at bangkok making wish in the morning .

28 Dec den go bangkok . Sigh~ I'm going to miss school for the first jan week !

TIRED

2011-10-17T05:59:00.000-07:00

Life is so difficult for me right now... I'm had enough of everything. I just hope time can stop!

Sigh ... Now need to work a lot for money ...

I'm going to change my air ticket to Bangkok because of the Flood -.-

SO SAD ~

I had a tired week !! [>,<]||

This is what i wanna said

2011-10-10T01:25:00.001-07:00

Oh my dear,

I have to tell you this....

We have been friend for few years.

And I just wanna to tell you this......oh ~

I have been loving you for 9 months & 12 days .

And have you ever loved me the same way as I do.

Did I ever came across of your mind.

Have you ever dream about me.

Did you ever miss me.

Did you ever ?

Did you ever?

wohoooo ...

Did you ever think of me?

After all this problem had happened?

Could you just tell me please.

I need your answer right now.... (Right now, Right now)

Write by : Rebecca PhuaJieYing

Do you like it?

This is what i wanna tell someone... I really hope this [Someone] could understand me feelings after reading this ... Although I don't know whether this people will come and read my blog or not ... But Once you read this & you think that I'm writing this for you ..Please do Text me ... This time round I wouldn't said "不知道" anymore... I would tell you something else. ( This is what i wanna said, but haven said it out loud ) I still Love you

I shall rest now ... [>,<]|||

Rebecca Phua Jie Ying 潘洁盈

17 Oct 2011, Monday, 0935pm

First October 2011 !! [WeiHong Bday]

2011-09-30T09:57:00.000-07:00

It had really been so long since I last update my blog...

Sometimes i really wanna to like someone else .. But I just can't forget him... Whenever i wanna to like someone else than him... My heart will came across his face ... I can't forget about him .. & sometimes It really hurts me a lot.. But at least I know that i am truly in love with him for this past few year .. & maybe even "NOW" I think that i am still in love with him .. I tried very hard to like someone else in my class or other school people... but it's just can't help me at all ... cos me & him really had a good past that can never ever forget so easily ...

Actually, we shall forget about the past and go on with a better ones...

To be honest .. No guys can be like him .. so nice <3

Seriously, I love him for who he is ... Not whether he is rich or handsome.... None of that above ... He is a nice guys that a lot of girls will be falling in love with him ...

I remember when we was Secondary one ... There was two express students like him before me.. He didn't choose anybody in the end ...

ANYWAY ! Happy Birthday to Tan Wei Hong .... Wish you all the best in Exam ... & forever must rmb that im the first one who wish you in facebook & twitter >< [Joking Only]

Time to watch LinBei <3

Nights ... 0110 am <3

I miss Blogging a lot !

2011-06-21T17:59:00.000-07:00

It seem that I didn't really blog about my life this few months. haha
I shall blog about now first. before go to few days or few month ago .....

Hey, guess what am I thinking right now?
Listening to Thai song again . hehe . You might think that I'm weird . I'm a Singaporean .. Why am I listening to some other language that I won't understand at all .
To be honestly, I am enjoying Thai song more than Kpop nowadays. Am I weird ? haha My Aunty & Cousin is from Thailand, Bangkok .... haha that's why I'm listening to thai song nowadays. I also have thai friends who always msn with my in English. & i always hope that i can faster finish learning Thai. So that i can talk to them in Thai language ! I miss my Thai Friends, Cousin, Aunty, Uncle & ah ma alot... 4days ago my sis when to Bangkok ...

Before she went to Bangkok the day before... She said this to me.. For sure that you won't wake up in the morning and send me off . haha guess what ! That day 19 June i sleep at 4am but i woke up at 8a.m ! PHUA ZI LING JIEJIE ! I make it OKAY !
To be honest, If I sleep at 4am den if the meeting time is 6am ! For sure that i also can wake up ! You know why ?
If you willing to do something for others... For sure that you will try your VERY VERY best to do it all the way. On that day I was very tired . Because this few week i was working and working ! None stop ! & i don have enough time to sleep & use computer or a laptop !

wa shit ! I'm not feeling well right now . BBAN ! (Be Back At Night) >.

14 April 2011

2011-04-14T06:00:00.000-07:00

It seem that i didn't update my blog daily !

haha I feel sorry for those people who are reading my blog weekly ...

Mmm, My laptop spoil already that's why I don't update blog daily like last time i did !

Sigh, I feel so sad nowadays !

Teacher take away my two phone ! [Iphone4 & Samsung ]

Pissed off for so many days ! She give me detention .....

I don't know what I'm typing right now . I only know i very tired & pissed off ~

Mr choo is right i shall go back church ! D:

GOOD MORNING 19.03.2011 Sat

2011-03-18T14:12:00.000-07:00

I need to go back to the hospital on 27 April 2011 .... To check again ...

[Hope I Will Be Fine]

Yeah Yeah ... & Keith bday was so fun during the night !!!! We go eat and we was talking about Joanne & Bernard .. haha .. Long story ... We laugh for a long time because of keith, bernard, joanne & adele ... LOL

Don't feel like updating much thing today ! Go twitter le ^^ bye

remember Pray For Japan !!! <3>

Anyway good morning .. haha i still haven slp later still go events on in the afternoon ... hoho GTG

Words of my days ^^

2011-03-13T09:47:00.000-07:00

Dream as high as you can.

Dream as far as you can.

Smile until you're old .

Love others like your family member.

If you feel sad for the Japan people,

Then you shall pray for the Japan right now !

In the Jesus name, Amen

Goodnight my World

& I love you

For who you are !

Stay strong as a World ~

Cause God wants to see that ~

To my lovely world guess ~

2011-03-13T09:16:00.000-07:00

Hey Guys,

It seem that i didn't update my blog for a long time. I'm sorry for that ... Because my laptop spoil & I'm busying with school work ... I have no time to update at all ... Today I update it's because that this week is a School Holiday !!! ... Another reason is I'm now at hospital ... Yesterday I didn't really know what has happened ! But I'm very sure that I was changing my ear ring ... & suddenly I feel like vomiting & dizzy . After that once I was awake .. I saw my mum in front of me & I didn't know what has happened . Oh my, This was seriourly scary ... This is not the first time that happened in my life ! The first time I went to SGH .... Now i came to KKH ... Sigh, How i hope that I'm a strong girl like others . I don't think I can play sports anymore ! Because of all this unwell sickness I don think I am able to play basketball again .. & not even football. But for sure that I won't give up playing basketball want ! Because that's the only sports I love it a lot ~

At KKH was so bored & I messaged someone that I like before ! It seem that he ignored my message . Seriously I will hate for life ! When I ask him are we still friend and he always reply me Yea, why ? ... But when I randomly message him ... He won't bother to reply at all ! & actully we don't seem like any of the friend in school ! & I always Wonder "Why don't he just said that we're not friend anymore !".

I also messaged some boys & my darling girls ! .... My girls cannot come and visit me because tomorrow they got NPCC Camp ... Sign ... My JOJO never come visit me !!! [How could you do this to me ?! I love you this much & why you don't love me back this much !] LOL ... Feelings bored & tired over here just hope that I'm at home with my lovely family . Oh ya, Keith birthday I guess I'm not going anymore . Because I still very weak ... Can only stay at home & rest . [After I go home ]
I love making friends over here !
I hate hospital because very noisy. My left hand is dam painful & I hope it will recover soon . Hope my sickness wouldn't come back after tmr ! Pls Load , I really need to stay strong like others did !
I wan to pray for the Japan people ! God always bless them ... Soon will recover want ... Japan keep on going with faith . Once God see the faith in you guys . For sure that he will make a different in it ! Trust God with all your heart ! Missing my lovely cousin in thailand now . I don't think this June holiday I will be able to go thailand . I think I will only go on Dec or next year JUNE ! I miss my thai friends too ~

Guys, [Listen]

I know that 2011 is not a easy start ... But i believe God will make a different in it !
Now might be difficult... But for sure that Future will be brighter !

Keep your heart strong forever ~
Trust that your God will make a different in it ~ Amen

Start with your life with a smile .

Siting in this KKH bed ... listening to those baby cry that's made me more stronger !

Because i could see the baby smile in the end of my day over here !
The cry might irritated me . But i just ignored ! Because i know that Baby will feel tired in the end like we did ! Am i right ?

Now i know that pain dose not mean anything to me . Because i know that other is painful than me . Like those japan people !! ~

For sure that this two days bill must be around $500++ ! I shall keep my body strong . So that i wouldn't fall a sick again or faint again .

Thank to someone who chatted with me just now . Thank You ... Hope you & her last long k !

When lying down on the bed and watch my heartbeat .. [beating up & down] & I very scare it jumped too slow or too fast !
Doctor used EG on me yesterday . & they find out that my heart is not normal. And I was like so scare . They want me to stay here for one more days . To check more clearly ..... So tired right now . GTG

World pray for JAPAN ! & have a good rest too ~ Sweet Dream my lovely world !!!
Amen

Random Post

2011-01-24T06:00:00.000-08:00

Listening to SHINee Music right now ...

DREAM FAR
DREAM HIGH
DREAM UNTIL IT HAPPEN
DREAM WHATEVER YOU WANT
DREAM UNTIL GOD MAKE IT COME TRUE

Sweet Dream [ASIA]
Have A Good Sleep [ASIA]
Have A Nice Day [ASIA]

With Love,
Phua Jie Ying Rebecca

Today was a bad day for me !

2011-01-24T05:48:00.000-08:00

Today,

During the morning was PE ... & I enjoyed with my classmates .
Mm ... But after that was maths . Everything was normal after that is Recess ..
After that is CPA !!! Irritating Lesson ...
I don't what sia ... I was doing work half way teacher suddenly ask my where is your name tag . then he ask clarence to write my name down ! Crazy sia . He didn't even let my explain . & this year this was my first deten ! This year i'm not going to get any deten . But That teacher give me . & i hate it a lot . This year i am like guai guai want lor . den he give me just because one name tag
& i was to office cannot find my name tag ! because friday i forget to bring home my name tag !
Grr.... after CPA is D&T den i ignore ... I just pack my bag and go home ...

On my way home .... when i was walking .....
I kept crying until i reach Aljunied Park den i stop crying . Is like inside the bus ppl keep on looking at me ... I'm like making a fool of myself .
I have never cried until like that ...
I remember the last time i cried in bus is 2008 ? i think ... the usher stuff ...
Oh yeah is not ... The last time i cried like tht was the day sis mae ann said smth to me .
& that's upset me MORE !
& i walked home that day and half way walking half way crying !

Gr..... I don't wanna to cry again . I wanna to study study study !
I really need time to relax myself right now . Arrr..... !!! God ah !!
Help me can ?!

Erm , Time to offline !

A tired day to update blog !

2011-01-05T02:41:00.000-08:00

I shall start from 25 Dec 2010 ....

Christmas day i went back church and i enjoyed everything on that day .... Every min i spend in church ... On that day i was thinking ... Why only christmas i go back church why don i go back church every week ? I really did wrong in the first place . Always go out with school friend if not go out with pri school friend .... Or maybe stay at home sleep the whole or watch TV ... I really don know why am i doing this ! To waste my time on Show , Sleep .... I never even study during holidays . I just feel bored & tired .. Don't really wanna to go out ... End up 25 Dec i went back ... Because my cousin asked me to ... Plus i 24 Dec never go church thats why i go on 25 Dec ....

Why am i leaving God like this ? WHY ?

Christmas Day 25 Dec 2010

I have a good christmas service with my zone mate ... & after service i went around church taking picture with C & A zone people . & i did take picture with children too !! hehehe Miss them lot !! After taking photo around i went up to lvl 13 & ask my cousin to go dinner with me , after tht his friend asked me .. Can we join you too ? then end up i eating MY DINNER with 3 little young boy ! haha . thats was funny ... eating with children are very different to dinner with friends, family , adult ... LOL ...

I remember i saw Yoko ... My darling ! haha . I miss her lot lot lot lor ! kekekekeke

30 Dec ...

I woke up at 6pm plus ... very late right . (because morning den sleep mah)

After that i went down to hougang wanna to rebond my hair after they wanna to close alrdy .. so i have to come down on the others days ... 31 Dec D: sad lor . after tht i go find wanxin n belmont ... we chat abt lot of things . i'm happy to know wanxin friends . they're as cute as wanxin ^^

10 plus reach home . den my sms watch KBS World .. Plus is i set the alert at 9pm to watch tht show . kpop show after tht myself .. forget abt it . Stupid rite ? Grr....

after i go crazy abt SHINee .. den my bro scold me ==

31 Dec from 6am until 1am i'm FULL ... hehe

From 6am - 8am i went out market with my dad ...

From 9am - 4pm Went out with the scholars & teacher ... We went to sentosa ... alot of thing have to talk about this trip with school friend & teacher .. sat den talk abt it ... skip this part .. anw actually this wan is until 9pm end up changed to 10pm ... but i cannot join them tht long :O

Actually 4pm i should go home change my shirt and go church . Because of 30 Dec ... cannot rebond .. so my church time have take out . rebond until 8pm like that . church still got service go out ... cos countdown start at 1030pm-1am ...

after rebond i go home . i wanna rest awhile after tht i fall asleep .. so i didnt when from countdown .. BUT BECAUSE OF THIS I CAN WATCH KPOP GOLDEN DISK AWARDS :D

SNSD GOT 3 Awards .. one of the awards is the best 1st wor :O

SHINee Got 2 Awards ..

2am got the 2nd good awards ^^

Anyways i heard that 2010 is SNSD world in Japan ..

This year will be SHINee World in Japan ...

Read from the Kpop news ^^ hehe

Now watch I LOVE J&K ... haha ... talking about FTIsland now . :O

omg i spend $30 on SHINee stuff == better don let my mum know . If not she gonna kill me . hoho ... I'm random right ?!

After i remember i went to bugis with avril, zy , joanne , julieann ... on 2 Jan <-- Sat talk abt it . also very long story .

This week started school . I don't really feel good . Cos of someone . ==

tired liao .. feel like sleep ... but cannot ! i have to do my English Journal ... Plus have to pack bag . sian lah .. this year is really STUDY STUDY STUDY ... No more SHINee time ...From today ...

cannot online much . only can online on sunday more ... Got laptop also no use . cos end up i lend my sis to use . i myself don use laptop nowadays . lazy liao . bye

Random Post ! Don't Know what else to Post nowadays !

2010-12-27T05:06:00.001-08:00

Hey Guys ,

This few days i'm being tired at home ... I couldn't really sleep very well ... & i just don't know why . I always wake up at 3pm to 6pm in between ... 12am sleep but 2am wake up again . After wake up at 2am .. I couldn't sleep at all . So i watch tvN ....

Mmm... tvN got lot of K-pop Music ... I Just love watching tvN (824) & KBS World (115) Cool man . All about korean ^^

Mm... This Year SHINee came to singapore on 29 Jan ...

Concert on 1 & 2 Feb ... If next year is on the same date ... I will be going to 1 Feb .. ^^ Because 2nd Feb is my bday . I'm with family !! cos is NEW YEAR ^^

hoho ...

I don't know what i typing right now ... because i don't really know what i should post right now ... Sigh , I feel tired ... Because school is starting really SOON !!! Next tue .... 4 Jan

Don't know what to do ... But i just hoping to stay at home ..

I hope that our school can study korean or thai ^^ (think too much hor)

Sigh don wanna post anymore . Just wanna to rest my eyes and i don't feel like online anymore . Use com until very bored lah ... Online also dont know what to do !

East Coast Park , Pit 10 (Zone F)

2010-11-22T23:32:00.000-08:00

Yesterday
Wake up in the morning & i called Avril ... Suddenly she tell me that she cannot go (Some personal reasons >< ) I was like so sad and don't know should i go or not . Then go back room and lie down and rest ... Half way thinking whether want to go or not ? Then rest until sister wake up we together listen to the recording that she drunk on 18 Nov 2010 (Bowen prom night Day) That night my sister was so scary ~ My sis friend bring her come back home . den i was like sleeping ... LOL
i only sleep for 10pm-2am == (4 hour ) I still remember why i sleep so early .. Is all because i never sleep on 17 Nov ... den on the 18 Nov from morning go out until 9plus . but i did sleep at julieann house for 40 min ! My sis made me cannot sleep anymore then i wake up half way take care her and use laptop !
haha let continue about the BBQ yesterday ...
Listen to the recording about 1hour den sis go shower . den change T-Shirt , pack bag and ready to go for east coast ...
Walk to MRT with sister . i take train to Paris ris . Bacause i tot is downtown east . end up eehwee sms me is east coast . i think because i am too blur .. haha den see wrong msg . first jaslyn sms me is downtown . but eehwee sms me is east coast . I'm surely a blur girl . like ziying said .. I'm memeblur ... I got lot of nick name sia :O

Then i reached Bedok ... U turn back and take toward joo koon ... Den i take to Eunos drop at there and change to bus 13 towards East Coast Park .
i find a sit and sit down listen to songs in my phone ... 10min later reached there already . i was like so happy .. But end up i walked 20 plus min to find the pit 10 .. Is like so far pls !
When i reach there the first people i saw was Charlotte chan ... den chat for awhile ... i go find Eehwee and wanna to pay her the money . End up she said later . cos she busy with the food !

Then lot of girls wanna to go play with the water ... Cool sia .
Hehe no one dare to go down to the sea water ... because we nv bring extra shirt ... hehe ... but we did take picture and play with the water . . play play play . after that someone go hide our shoes !!!! We keep on finding our shoes !!! den some other girls still smiling at us ... haha . we helping one each other to find ... 5 min later we found it :D
but i wear it and go back to the pit . End up i found out my shoes got a lot of red ants !!!! OMG
i faster take out my shoes .. den i don know what happen now my left leg den red and very big :O
not pain but itchy !! Don't feel like playing with sands or sea water anymore D:

After that i go find drink and go eat something ._.
eat play chat .. lot of thing ~ until the night time .
They play was fire ! And a lot of guys is running after Nic.L
Funny sia they wanna to throw him to into the sea den Nic.L Keep on running and said lot of thing . don't lah don't lah ! pls ... den run away again . Wa :O he run dam fast >.<"

After that Li wen & charlotte play with ballons ... and those guys also play with the ballons ><
after all we walk together to PP Mall ... (Parkway mall) haha .. We take 76 to church (paya.L)
Change to MRT .. Sudden some people to go toilet after that everyone go . LOL ...
Heart of God Church People are always together ... We won't go different way :)
we always wait for one another .. Just like sibling & cousin ... We're one family <3 (ALWAYS & FOREVER)
End up a few take bus . A few take yellow line ... Most of us take bus and Green line ... :D
after that one stop later is Aljunied MRT ... Is more stop ... & said bye to then walk past a bread shop buy break home and eat . because i haven't really eat a lot of food over there >,<
Reached Home dam happy and sit down and watch 866 with brothers .

Today
Today is brother de last Nov dinner in singapore with us ... He going to Bangkok with friends tomorrow ... They go uncle house stay . I hope they can take us go . I miss thailand friend and cousin . But i am happy because 3month later ... Keejoo & Kenjee is coming back singapore for New year .. New year dinner first day is my bday !!! :D Cool man ...
i can have cake and with my all cousin and family with me !!! xD
hehe can get more red pack :O
I dam jealous lah . u going to find a job and work . Earn money go thailand with family .

Few Days Ago
I was to East Coast Park with Joanne , Avril , Sock Han ( Not sure how to spell her name ) , Qi Tai & Quan Sheng .
Don't feel like blogging anymore .. I shall rest now . That's All for today ! Goodbye <3

Boring Time

2010-11-12T22:10:00.000-08:00

Just now i when to buy Mac for breakfast ..
After buying that i went home happily ...
But when i reached home . I found out that the people give me wrong order !!
I was like angry . i wan hot cake you give me big breakfast ? (You're not awake ah ?)

After eating ...
Then i go watch show (The Gem Of Life)
That show is nice ! >.<
Feel sleepy right now ~
Maybe i shall sleep after this show finish :D
Sleep Sleep Sleep Zzz ~

Now raining , this must be a good time to sleep ... So sad , i still watch :D

Thanks Mingfeng

2010-11-12T14:18:00.001-08:00

Today , suddenly Ming Feng (superman) chat with me in msn .. haha so sudden , is like long time no chat , msn , sms & meet . hehe i tell him a lot of thing that i kept to myself for a long time !
Talking to him feel mush more better now . I'm happy that i can forget everything because of his words... Not because of his my close friend or maybe i fall in love to him . haha both not !
Is better of some words that i believe lot of people will agree ....
I shall let go the past . I shall keep staying happy . I shall smile in life & don't don silly thing .
I shall not cry again . I SHALL NOT CRIED INFRONT OF THAT PEOPLE AGAIN ..

MingFeng dam smart sia . He guess that idiot is a guys . LOL and he said a lot of things like blah blah blah ... ( smth like read me mind )
I read people mind a lot of time . But no one read my mind before . Only him .
I can only read one people mind very carefully ! That's .... Rat ( that idiot )

Maybe i shall listen to Mingfeng .... 'Forget Past'

I really want to stay happy like last time i did . Maybe is because of some small thing & i cannot stay as happy as last time i did !

we chated in msn like 2hour plus plus !
I always remember this time .. 0630am .. good friend :O

HURT

2010-11-11T09:15:00.000-08:00

I'm sorry

2010-11-11T08:18:00.000-08:00

Done By : The C.S.I science center ( one of the lady )
It look like real right ? This is all behind the C.S.I Show..

I'm sorry for playing this with those people who care for me ... I don't know that you guys think that this is real .. I know that's call care . I really regret for playing so long . But i didn't regret for putting those picture to facebook and let you guys misunderstand ..
Mmm... Because of my bro friend saw that picture and he tell me bro . & my brother called my mum and find me . He worry for me .. Oh my this is the first time my brother show so much care to me . I really dam happy . Although i did lies to so many people . But i really hope you guys forgive me . I really feel the love of my friends , family & teacher . I'm sorry for making you guys so worry about me . . I'M SORRY this is the first time i play stuffs like that .
But that idiot .... Sigh , never mind idiot change to Rat . Sound nicer , right ? Arr...

I really don't understand what is this Rat thinking about . I really hope that i never ever know Rat before . Knowing Rat is my most painful start .
Sigh , my heart very pain sia .. No one will break friendship like Rat did to me !
I cried on Thursday & Sunday at your house downstairs .. You have no reaction for that too ...
What are you thinking . Can't you tell me ... Pls, i beg you for that . .
I cannot don't said that you're an idiot . You don't understand what i want . you choose everything yourself without asking other .. Maybe because now you got a lot of friends and you don't want 'ME' a NT students as your friend .. Never mind . Just said it ! & i will still smile .

Seriously , I have to said this even if i cut my hand ..... (If you're not my friend , you don't have to care about my personal life ANYMORE) You're not the old ..... .... .... ! That's why.... i don't allow you to can about my personal life .
Honestly , I did think before to cut my own hand .. when you made me cried on Thu .... But i still understand this friendship is "MEANINGLESS" !! No meaning at all ..
That days when you join xuan li into the msn chat onwards . I really try to let go ... But ...........
You suddenly talk to me about the facebook cut hard stuffs . I was like blur . what happened ? why suddenly you talk to me ? Is there something wrong ?
End up you ask me that . I really don't know what to reply you ...
Rat ask me : you cut hand because of me ?
I feel like replying you Yes . (But i don't want to lie to you, I just don't know why..)
& i don't why i also feel like telling you that i am playing with them only ...
but end up i didn't because i know this might be the last time we talk in msn .

Now i come and blog because i want myself to understand . How you destroy Rebecca Phua !
How you made her cry .
How you made her heart feel so badly .
& Hope you made her hate herself ever more than last time she did .
Because of the talking in MSN ... Now i don't feel like eating . & i feel like leaving my own house and go out walk walk walk awhile .
When i young i don't scare of any thing .
But when i grow up i know what i scare already .
I scare losing friends .
I scare losing someone that i like .
I did lost that people that i like before and i don't want this to happen again .
Lastly , I scare the most is 'the darkness of the street and city'.
That Sunday i cried at playground ... Do you know how scare it is for a girl?
And i am really unlucky that day .. I cried half way ... Suddenly i saw one RAT (Real Rat) ...
some many four legs thing .. i only scare of RAT the most ==
I run here run there den the rat follow ... And i hope you understand why i let you go up and don follow you . .................................
It's all because i don't want to cry Infront of you & i saw your face ! ( the angry face)

But i love Night view a lot .

I always wonder what is good friend for ? Last time i know what is Good friend for ... But NOW i really don't know anything .. anymore !

2010-11-10T15:57:00.001-08:00

2010-11-09T18:22:00.000-08:00

CE Lesson - Friday !

2010-09-23T18:26:00.000-07:00

I sdon't know what i am going to do now ... I forget to post about the Secondary two camp ... So sad don't know what i wanna to do kow . I can only try to recall about that camp ...

Later gonna report at 3pm all the way until 8pm night .. Lol ... Hoping everything will go all right today ! Don't know why today feelings so down ... Maybe i shall stop thinking about all this stuffs .

No matter what going to happen in the end .. Just trust your God in every moment of your life ..
Live with your lovely smile everyday ... Will brings you Joy & of cos the children &baby can brings you joy everyday !

I gonna be busy today .. ><
Hoping tomorrow i will wake up early for church !
So sad my sister & brother all have Iphone4 alrdy ... But i have to wait until 27th April 2011 ...
Wait till the end ! hahas . Keep growing . Keep Smiling !
I want Iphone3 more than Iphone4 !!! (:

Feel like saying all this to the 'Red Shirt' People

2010-09-22T06:20:00.000-07:00

Red Shirt

I Just don't understand why you guys are doing all this ?
Yeah , you are right ... Red shirt never died ! But You guys kill 91 people .. Are you happy for all this ? Killing is fun ah ? Did you guys think for others ? I know that the PM are not good to the poor .. But no matter what will happen ... Can't you love your family ? You are Thailand !! ( The Land Of Smile ) That's why i love being in Bangkok ... Over there you guys are just like my Second family ... No matter what happen .. Can you guys sit down like a family & talk about it ?
PM might be unfair in some way .. But not because of all this unfairness you guys kill people ... Some people have they are own 'Happy Family' & They are kind .. Just because all small stuffs you killed 91 people !!
Do you guys think before you do .. You can said now Is all because of the PM ... ( being bad or whatever )
YOU GUYS ARE ALSO BEING BAD TO OTHERS ! ETC.... kill those people because of unfair , angry ? Is they're fault ? No right ... Can you guys be more fair to the others .

Hoping you guys understand !

I don't want because of all this stupid stuffs made other cannot go Thailand for holidays trip ! Some people are like me .. Got cousin , family , friends over there ... I wanna to go visit them but can i ? I can ... But i am wrong about the safety over there ... I don't even there to ask my grandma to go ... Is like not so safe for us ! Just stop pls ... I love the words !

Thailand is a land of SMILE ! (:

CE Lesson ~

2010-09-21T21:33:00.000-07:00

I have beem so long never update my blog ... So people might forget about this blog about ...

I was wondering why do people always think that i like him ... I did said before i like him ! But is as a friend ... I almost fall in love with him ! But end up i never ... So pls stop saying that i like him ! I just hate it when people kept saying that i like ! But i don't ! He is just a good friend of mine ( Last Time )

I wish he is still my Good Friend ... But he is not already ! He start being cold to me after Sec 2 Camp ... I know that i am in the wrong first .. But i have beem saying so many sorry to you !

Can't you just forgive me .. I love you as my friend forever ... I had never loved you before & I am hoping you will forgive me !

During friday i asked you fro chat ... & you agree .... I was like so happy & i feel like jumping up and down . LOL But of cos i don dare to jump :P

Is just like a feeling to jump ! haha .

End of year is coming soon . I am going to study for my exam .. I don't wanna to fail ... I have regrets for so long !!! Thinking why are you being like that to me .. Sigh , I'm seriously sorry my friend ! Forgive me ... I need you to be with me and cheer me up everyday !

Can we go back like last time ? GOOD FRIEND ? >.<

Rebecca Phua Jie Ying

21 August 2010

2010-08-20T13:46:00.000-07:00

On the 17 August 210 ,
I vomit in the morning 05:38am ... Early in the morning wake up i was very happy that Tuesday i woke up so early ... But end up wake up so early is to vomit ... -.-ll Irritating sia .....
I remember 3 July 2010 i fall down and the doctor told me if vomit need to go back to hospital ...
Lol . That was like one month ago doctor said wan ... so is like this vomit must be nothing want right ? haha . hope so ....

This few day school happened a lot of things ... And i think is not fair to me at all ....
I never come to school on Tuesday & Wednesday .... I never give letter or MC ..... Then , Mr lam give me detention ... whatever ... Tuesday really vomit leh . you guys don't trust me ... I don't said lies please ... Arg..... Irritating school . Cannot post much cause now very late and i wanna to go find dad right now . . sian now is going to be 5am ... soon ..............

Going to off the laptop and go find dad . 7am come back i think . Then come back sleep . Afternoon 1pm like that wake up den go julieann house .... Sigh ... Life is different from last time now !

Life can be up and down anytime ......... Just hope that can be low like the sea ... no need to worry so much luh ....
Nowadays i don't trust peijing anymore and ziying also . Cause ziying really changed a lot from last time .

today alisha and julieann message me .... Julieann ask whether am i still angry with alisha , ziying & herself . And actually i was not so angry with alisha right now . & i never angry about julieann . Cause she didn't said anything yesterday that hurt me ...

Ziying became more heartless to me ... I hate her more than i hate others people .... She really changed to someone that's different from last year ...
Last time she wun make the cry ... But now she made avril cried for two times this year. And she also hurt me though her idiot words . made me don't feel like going to school . i feel like telling teacher what she said those words that hurt me yesterday .... Actually today wan to go school wan . but half is because of mum also .... Sigh .. Don't wanna to post anymore . Goodnight to my lovely blogger who is always be on my side and friends ..

National Day Has Just Over ...................

2010-08-09T13:14:00.000-07:00

During those few days ..... I found out that i kept going out with my classmates . I don't know whether is good or bad . But I'm very happy that nowadays i am very close to my classmates . But that is not the happy that i am finding right now . How i hope i can trust someone with all my heart in school .......... Don't know why i just can't . Wondering for so many days .
Finally , i know i lost the way with him ! ( Not Dy )
Haha . But no matter what has happened . Is all over ! ~ Start a new life with my smile that's all . haha

How i feel after so many thing happen

2010-08-03T09:55:00.000-07:00

I'm always so sorry about what i posted on the blog ...
-Sometimes i might have lot of spelling mistake .
-Sometimes i might talk bad about others . But i'm sorry , If you're not happy you may tag on my cbox . Thank you

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I haven even say the main point yet ..
Being a sport leader , yeah we have to show others the leader of us ! Some did show , some never even show the leader of them ! Is they're problem . But one thing that i don't really understand is ...... I did so many thing for her . Why did she scold me when someone else made her angry ! I only go watch awhile the NDP & played badminton with friend for 1hour . OVERALL ONE HOUR ONLY ... Why i come back you scold me for ?
So many SL never report on time , never even come and do duty you never scold them ? i go play awhile you scold me for not doing any work ?
Like the express sport leader did lot of thing like that .
1st , Me & Bernard not your dog !
2nd , Bernard ran off too ! Why you never scold him . & he ran off LONGER than Me pls !
3th , Express sport leader never report ! Only some did .
Why do the express sport leader can leave early and NT Sport leader always have to help until the end of the games end ? Why are just so call the helper kay !
I don't why you like to scold girls more than boys student ! unfair .

Why is all this unfair thing happen to me ?
Did you know you scold until me like that made me scold the lineman for never do job properly .
The normal rebecca are as friendly as she was in church during badminton inter class .
Because of your scold ...

1 . Why are you still standing there , Faster find the lineman !
(I'm standing there to watch the games start and end properly.. you should find someone else to find lineman . NOT ME! )

2.Is the sec 3 who play wrongly in the match . you should only scold the sec 3 sport leader . Not me and someone others people .

3. Just a NYAA stuff you scold that until 1hour plus !

4.I open the door on time . ask people to help you set up . Then just because i MIA for 1 hour come back give you scold ? You think i should help you from the start until the end ? I'm not your house de dog pls.

5. 2T1 & 2E6 are the last match we shall clean it after playing . This is correct .. But why is 2E6 people never clean only 2T1 people are doing ?
Seriously i want to say that " 2T1 got 2people report for duty . 2E6 downstairs playing basketball . no one doing duty at all . until you ask me to go find them . If i not wrong you should not ask me go find 2E6 people . MISS , you should know the badminton rule more than i did kay .
Sec 2E1 & 2E3 people should do lineman at the last match . but where they go ?
I call for 2E3 people 2 times then they come . 2time with my voice high !!!!!!! "
You're just being unfair to the NT people . Treat express people so good . UNFAIR !

2E1 sport leader never report for duty most of the time . Why you never scold them ? Because they're express , they need to study .. no time ? Which reasons ? tell me

2T1 also have project , tuition , studies , CCA or more . Not only express students . stop being unfair lah . Irritating

& sorry for scolding the lineman on that day . Cause she will scold me if i never start on time .

Sorry to that teacher i leave early . never help you until the end . Cause since you treating me like this . i won't help you anymore .If you wanna to take off my sport leader place . You may i won't stop you anyway . Cause teacher are always right .
Being sport leader for one year plus i know the real you already .
Like what dingyuan told me before don't have to help her want actually .
And some many people talking bad of you (miss) i still always tell them that you're nice . I'm sorry for saying lies last time . Now i know the real nice teacher and a unfair teacher .
Although on monday i quarrel with mdn liang and i know i also have fault . & i shouldn't scold her . I'm really sorry to her about this quarrel . I don't dare to say sorry to her . Cause to me in my heart . i willing to say sorry none stop . cause is really my fault i should blame myself for being selfish sometime .
I am trying to control myself for stop quarreling with people .
But last time i am already being this . So now i want to change but i use need more time . i know what i am doing . i also know that i am stupid for being a dog who help teacher from the start till the end . Like what joanne say me " Stop being teacher DOG , stupid ! "
Am i really so stupid ? Maybe .
I just don't know why am i doing this for ?

Because of all this happen i don't wanna to go school . Actually is not only don't wanna .
Monday i remember i late for school and i don't know why this was my first time went to school and very scare that teacher dont let me go back class and have lesson with my classmate . I just hoping teacher won't hold me back . So i can study . i donno why nowadays i like to studies . Maybe cause i really grow up already not like the past i always cannot control myself .
Actually this time round i change also have to thank joanne for it . cause when i get angry she will always stop me and tell me this " Quarrel got use ? find out what happen behind before you get angry for it " Although she always bully me . in other way actually is playing . but i don like the playing matters .. But i wun angry for what she did to me cause she always teach me to the right place . although she is dam playful girl . Actually she is nice in her heart . only the girls understand why .
The Best teacher is just like msr tan like that . She never give up on me & i remember got one day me n sim ee when to toilat without asking her den she cannot find us . we still go toilet until 30min .... den she scold me . not that i dont wanna to answer her . Is only that i know that i am wrong but i don know how to say sorry plus that day joanne bully me thats y i never stay in class . So i don wanna to tak that day . i know she was angry but i donno how to explain myself when i am not in a good mood . when i never come to school she willing to ask me what happen but i don really like to share thing wif teacher anymore . She still send me email about that chinese words . she really use alot of time on 2T1 . To her we are like one family ... But to me she is like my pastors & leaders never give up on anyone . And she always smile in school . Her smile make alot of different in my life . This is what a good teache call . & she everytime said i very cute i donno why ? in the first place i think that she was crazy after knowing her more . like sm , yc , ismail problem . i know more about her . And she was the first teacher that i never like before .
Even can talk bad teacher sometime . But when i think back ............ I always remember the good thing about teacher not bad stuff . cos i always love them as my teacher .
MY classmate i can dislike them most of the time . But i know that no matter what happen we have to stand tgt hand in hand like a family ! This will never change 2T1 can always be 2T2 . Only have to see our mood . & who is the teacher who teaching us right now !
NT student is not really that bad as how other think .
Now i dislike the express student more than NT student liao .
After this inter class . i understand more about hand in hand tgt like the family .
What does friend & family mean . It actually have a big different .
Friend wouldn't help you along the way .
Family will always be the first one who care or helps YOU !

I remember when i go in store B and cry .....

Half way crying . suddenly my mind comes in someone ... I don't know why . But i just hope i can hug him and cry out loudly without anyone else is looking .. Only ME & HIM ! No one else . After thinking of him i cry even more . Just don't know why . Maybe that's love ?

I don't understand why do this teacher scold me when she get angry . If i got chance i will want to keep all this inside my heart . All this unfairness that i get . no one will help me protest wan . Irritating games !
Stay quite and let the time past will be better for me !
QUITE ? sigh . Life is no longer meaningful as i think anymore .

บางคนสามารถช่วยให้ฉันได้อย่างไร ฉันเก็บเพิ่มเติม มันเจ็บเพิ่มเติม ฉันได้เก็บล็อตของสิ่งที่อยู่ในหัวใจของฉันแล้วฉันไม่ต้องการให้เพิ่มเติมมากขึ้นแล้วฉันรู้สึกเหนื่อยมากอยู่แล้ว ฉันเพิ่งยอมนอนตราบใดที่ฉันสามารถ ฉันไม่ต้องการไปโรงเรียนอีกต่อไป ไม่เหนื่อยไปสำหรับฉัน อย่างไรผมหวังว่าจะอยู่ในประเทศไทย ถ้าโรงเรียนไม่เริ่มก่อนเวลาดังนั้น ฉันจะไม่กลับมาสิงคโปร์อย่างรวดเร็วดังนั้น

누군가 날 도와 드릴까요? 자세한 계속! 그것은 더 많은 상처를! 많은 것은 이미 내가 더 계속 싶지 않아 내 마음에 계속 있었다 이미 더 기분이 매우 피곤 이미, 난 그냥 내가 수 만큼 잠을 기꺼이. 난 더 이상 학교에 가고 싶지 않아. 나를 위해 피곤. 어떻게 내가 태국에서 머물 바란다. 학교 결코 이렇게 일찍 시작하는 경우 내가 싱가포르 너무 빨리 다시 오지 않을 것이다!

誰かに役立つことができますか？詳細を維持！それより痛い！多くの私は詳細を維持するには望んでいない私の心に既に事を続けたとより既に私はすでに非常に疲れを感じる、私は喜んで私はできる限り、スリープ状態にします。学校はもう行きたくないです。私のために疲れています。どのように私はタイに滞在する予定です。シンガポール非常に速くは学校はそんなに早く開始する場合私は戻ってくるだろう！

能停止在生活中哭泣嗎？

晚安了

I'll remember you

It has been so long since we have talked
I hope that things are still the same
hoping they will never change
cause what we had can't be replaced
don't let our memories fade away
keep me in your heart for always

You made me believe
that I can do almost anything
stood right by me
through the tears through everything

I'll remember you,
and baby that's forever true
you're the one that I'll always miss
never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for you,
no matter what you're goin' through
in my heart you'll always be, forever baby
I'll remember you

I promise you I won't forget the times we shared, the tears we cried
You'll always be the sun in my sky
It may be fate that brings us back to meet again someday
Even though we go seprate ways

You made me believe
that I can do almost anything
You stood right by me
through the tears through everything

I'll remember yooooou,
and baby that's forever true
you're the one that I'll always miss
never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for yooooou,
no matter what your goin' through
in my heart you'll always be, forever baby
I'll remember you

If the day should come when you need someone
(you know that i'll follow)
I will be there
Don't ever let there
be a doubt in your mind
'cause I'll remember you, you

I'll remember you,
and baby that's forever true
you're the one that I'll always miss
never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for you,
no matter what your goin' through
in my heart you'll always be, forever baby
I'll remember you

Forever baby, I'll remember you

My life has changed lot !

2010-08-03T09:28:00.000-07:00

Yesterday ,
Got badminton inter class . I went early to open the door . And i will always be the only sport leaders who report first and go home about 4 or 5 plus . I don't know why after yesterday . i don't feel like helping her anymore . I think i should learn from dingyuan . Not to do duty . Since so many sport leader every time also never report on time , some even never report !

Teacher always think that i complain this complain that . But is not that i want to complain . I complain is because i don't anything happen ... I know that if i kept everything to myself , end up i will cry , quarrel or even fight with teacher or students about something .
I just wanna to have some peaceful life . Why can't i have it right now ? Are you guys really want me to died then give me a peaceful life that i want ? Why do NT students act different from the Express people . It is very tiring ... Do you guys know about it ... No one really know how i feel ...
Although last time i use to be in church every thing goes well in my life . But how come now i only want to study first before going church then every thing start to happen .

God , are you trying to call me back in this way ? Are you ... Pls dont use this way kay . I dont like it . i believe that you wouldn't hurt me ! Am i correct ? Jesus Christ .

I remember last Monday i lost my wallet at indoor sports hall during the badminton inter class games was on . I think is someone who took it ... sigh , inside got 2 cards that's important to me .
*Usher cards
*Thailand card
-Ez link
-5 dollars old money
-nebo cards ( hope i never spell wrong )
-someone name card
-4dollars
****MY CHILDHOOD PICTURE !!! <- This is like so impt pls !
Which idiot took it ! Ass Hole .

I regret for choosing zhonghua in the first place . .
Sigh , But already get into this school i also cannot do anything .

1 more hour going to sleep already . now going down and buy food .
& i have to learn chinese ! Tomorrow got exam !
Hope can pass .
My classmate only some people cares about me only . sigh ........................... Goodbye blog
And sweet dream my lovely blogger .

I dont know why am i feelings so sick today ?!

2010-07-27T21:35:00.000-07:00

Today , School was all right ... I ask javier where is dingyuan . He tell me that he never come today . Because he's sick . After hearding that . i go back class . I was so worry about him . But i really don't know why am i so scary of right now .
I scare i like him again .

June holiday , july

2010-07-05T08:43:00.000-07:00

I can't believe that ... I ................... So long never update blog . haha . My jun holidays was amazing !

1June10-4Jun10
I went to Malaysia with lot of people . On the was was like scary cause i first time go oversea without my family member along .

Day 1
Morning go report .
we take bus to malaysia .
hahas i forget alrdy . Lol . cos is one month again de stuff liao .
( plus when i was thinking about the past things . my head will become very painful !! -.-" )

17 June 10
We have BBQ ... and i went to ETP .... den i saw my pri school friend . LOL sia .

19 June - 27 June
I was in thailand !! And makes new friends over there .
The amazing things is ....................My baby cousin SO........... Cute .... but she like to run a lot . super playful <- kenjoo ( qian ru ) ... The baby boy haven even one month . so i nv even play wif him .. hehe . he love to sleep & cry <- kenjee

I go thailand shopping from afternoon until 10plus reach home. THAILAND IS LIKE SO BIG . SO WE TOLD A LONG TIME TO GO CITY OR GO BACK HOME !! xD

And i enjoy playing basketball wif the thailand ppl <3
It's Cool .

maybe this year after exam i will go thailand stay for 2months .. and tried to forget singapore stuff and relax .......... i have lot of plan ^^
anyway who even want to go wif me also can . but you have to pay for ur air ticket . but eat n stay don have to pay money . cos i will be staying in my uncle house . my sis is bring her friend to go along (:
need to bring about $500 ... you can stay for few week or 1 month . but i am going to stay for long !!! cos i love thailand ><
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I dam sad on sat 3 july i went to singapore general hospital ...
I run ... den fall down . After tht i stand up i look at my sis at the opp ( bugis street ) i stand up and look at her n my cousin ... SMILE at them after tht i cant ever see my surrounding view or ppl ... cant even heard any sound . den i feel very dizzy . my sis n cousin look at me and laugh at me . after tht i don know what happen . when i open my eyes i was at ............ donno where i was blur n my face was all white . . my cousin , sis , bro very scare at that moment ... becos my mouth , face wif dam white . i don even know who are them in the first place . my bro faster call my mum come n bring me to hospital check my head .

after i was awake i find out tht i lost memory abt 20min ... Just a fall down can really change your life or days ... sigh .... i cannot think of anything this few days . becos my head still very painful . i feel dizzy right now . i wannaa to go take a rest .

This fall change my life . i go do x-ray good that is normal . but i stay in hospital one day .. so boring over there .
sorry if i got mistake . cos i don read be4 i post . plus i am dizzy this few days . if this week i vomit i have to go back to hospital again D;

i hate to run now !!!

i miss fluke , kenjee , kenjoo & my thailand friends -.-"

Thailand 3th days

2010-06-21T06:57:00.001-07:00

Haha .. This few days in thailand was fun !! Amazing ~

Things That Happened Today

2010-05-18T10:10:00.000-07:00

Hello Readers ,
This is the night post .. Laugh out loud ...
Today actually got sports leader meeting .. but i overslept ... so i didn't attend this morning .
I woke up at 0854am .. & i faster go shower den rush down to school . Reach school was about 10am ?! If i am not wrong . Den i messaged Xiao Wei .......... she told ended already D; i was like so sad . but is okays . cause i still got thing to do at 11am in school . Walking alone in school for 30min like that ... Plus i did go find Ms Fariha .... She dam irritating man . I only wanna to tell her that Mr Lam let me come and tell her change the sports leader name only . She scolded me :O
So i know why so many people don't like her already ... Then Mrs Tan is looking for her (Ms Fariha) ... I saw her den i told her that Mrs tan was looking for her .. She asked me back . " For What ? " i say i don't know then she give me a stupid irritating face !! Ass Hole man ~ Today she pissed me off man !!

After that i help Mrs Tan to take things at the PE store room . & i said a lot of bad thing about Ms fariha ... I talked to Mrs Tan , She did listen to me . but she didn't give any comments about her . . Lols . Mrs Tan called me to wait inside class room & look after that things . hehe . den i look all the things ..she went back to stuff room . i waited alone in the class room about 20min ? listening to psp songs :D so cool . all my psp songs are THAILAND SONGS <3>

11am ... 3people came for the help up . . Do this do that . Play here play there . Chua Yo Chern kept saying something that i don't like to listen to !! ~ Idiot pig . lol joking only . he is very funny & irritating .... <-- when he disturb me or pissed me off .
cut this cut that ... help here & help there .... after that clean up den can go home . Mrs Tan want to pass us $20 to eat . but 4 of us rejected her :) den she pass $10 for us to buy drink . We also rejected . lols . Tomorrow i still have to help Mrs Tan to bring the thing to NY poly ... I take bus wif the sports leader .

Yeah .. I still remember while i doing thing Mr Lam come in & asked 13 May didn't come school right ?! Do you have MC ~ I go blur at that time . Den i dam ask . I said to him " ON THAT DAY 14 MAY I PASSED YOU A MC .... AND THAT MC STILL SHOW 13May 10- 14 May 10 MC ... It Mean is a two days MC but i still went to school and take my maths exam . . "
Den dam forgetful man ~ Lols . But It's Okay for me . Cos this is not his first time ;P

Tomorrow still have to wake up early -.-" boring man . but i feelings dam awake right now .
But i still have to sleep . cause tomorrow got 400m run ~~~~~~~~ Grrr.... I Must JiaYou & Do My Best !! Phua Jie Ying Rebecca , All The Best <3>

0630am must reach school ! Tomorrow must be a boring day & tired day for me ~
Goodnight , sweet dream , have a nice day & Good sleep .... I gonna sleep well tonight

With Love,
Phua Jie Ying Rebecca
19 May 2010
Wednesday
01:41am
:] Smile

Random night post ~

2010-05-09T11:28:00.001-07:00

Lols . now alrdy 2plus i still have not slp yet . wondering whether tmr could manage to woke up on time anot . life is not easy for me nowadays . no one could live wif a smile eveyday . but if i could not smile everyday . at least i manage to smile one days .

Now , to me ....

Everything has over means over . No one could go back the "Past" ... hahas . tht is what everyone learn am i rite ?!

tue is exam le . omg is chinese . i have to learn on monday . if not i going to fail . i don like chinese . i hate it . but being a chinese ppl cannot don learn chinese or fail chinese . hahas . . so i going to rest now . i think this week not going to post le bah .

I'm so tiring of blogging -.-

Goodnight everyone & sweet dream ~

2010-04-19T22:43:00.001-07:00

grr.... keith very irritating !!

Yesterday was mummy birthday O.o

2010-04-16T14:47:00.000-07:00

Hi Guys ,
Since my last post was like very long ago . The reason is only because of .... Lazy Zzz ... hehe ;P
Nowadays my life is like difficult . but i know that i must always think before i do thing . this week i only go school for two days . i don't know why . but i just hope this will not happen again .

Monday
I sick !! before mon i alrdy feels abit sick on sat alrdy . but i still got go sch on mon .
like normal days . but between all tht . during math lesson , i go to sick bay . mr pandiyan come to sick bay and ask me , ray & yik dong wan go home if not go back class . he don wan us to stay over there . And ray very act sia . when teacher come he act tht he is not feelings well ... but before teacher come , he was playing wif yik dong !! i wanna to scold them . but is okay . cause i got the song to cover the background sound ... but mr pandiyan ask me whether wan to go home anot . but i know if i want . in the end mum have to come school . i don wan to trouble my mum ... and i think i still can take it . so i go back to class .
Oh man is like SS ... Ms fariha (hope i didnt spell wrong her name) lesson ... she don let me go toilet .. some more the class was so irritating sia .
weihong - playing wif yik dong .
ziying - talking to yao zong & hong soon .... playing wif joanne . walao . how can the monitor do this . den i really cannot take it alrdy . so i walk infront of her and scold her infront of the class . and my eyes drop out the tears .... i feel the pain in my heart for scolding her . cause i always love her like my best friend . but i don really understand why she must bang the table nowadays . i can only say . i really feelings down when i scolded her . but i really wan her to change . after that mr chong call me to apologise to her . i did .

Den after tht i go NYJC wif derren (if i didnt spell wrongly) he teach me walk short cut . lol . be4 tht i chated wif jollene . hais . 2.4km run ... i saw kaslina . and she ignore me . i think cos i scold zy . she show me face . is okay i don care . run startign soon . i go eat bread only plus plus medicines .. den i go for the run . while i feelings tired wanna to stop . i always saw the God way ... that only one way . i just run and run . cos i feel okay . maybe of some angel . thank God for the nice way and ur words to me . i am the first girl in class . hahas . but tht day joanne didnt run if she run i think she is the first girl in NT ... haha lol . i get 3point for tht .
after all the run i go buy drink . den raining . i walk back to scg opp n buy drink . i almost fall down . javier ang laugh at me .. dy ask him what happen . cos i think dy didnt show anything . ==
hais . i wait for the who and asked him smth . den i went home and rest .

but the next day i woke up at 0630 am . dots but i don wan to go sch plus i have reason . so i choose not to go . cos of the class ...

tue nv come to sch .
but joanne did sms me . by seeing her message can really make me smile ... like last time THEY did .... hais . i miss the past . thanks joanne ...

wed nv go also . den only sms joanne during the morning . . i miss the morning call tht my good friend always will give D; last time i use to be early cause he always call me on time . he wun call me after 6am normally . but now i don have any call or sms from him anymore cos both of us not friend anymore .

thursday -
morning meet alisha in the bus .. chat . she said i going to replace zy as monitor . i was like huh why ? she told me mr chong say wan .. plus mr chong is saying tht i give zy heart time . when she was monitor . i go talk to mr chong .. he like very angry at tht time she think tht zy don wan to be monitor is all because of me . i wanna to scold him wan . but i know tht i should cool myself . den i don wan talk to him . alisha told me on wed bernard go say smth to zy so she don wan to be anymore .
bernard said all is my fault .. i wanna to scold him . but i had rest my mind on tue and wed . so everything i will think be4 i do . like wat joanne said to me last time . you don think be4 you do . next time you will regrets . i believe in this words tht came out from her mouth . so i listen to her . plus she my good friend .
isacc also say is "ni hai de" den i ask him to say again . end up he nv say . and he apologise to me . but i wun forgive ppl so easily nowadays . cos i had enough of 4giving ppl . i'm sorry to say tht ....
i don like isacc to say tht cos i like him like my young bro like tht . so i can only say . i wun forgive him ... (it hurt more than hundreds of words)
ms yeo talked to me ... of cos i wont said it here i will only keep to myself . and follow what she say .

People who wanna know why i listen to ms yeo lot of things ..... is all because " she always lead me to the right want . plus she have my pastors number ... and I BELIEVE IN HER " (main reason)
i hope i could really do what she said to me . pray to God . maybe i sh all believe in more of myself from today onwards .

Life is not that easy and i believe that everyone know that . cause as long that you living in this world you will have problem in life for sure . if you dare to tell others that you don't have problem in youre life . I can only tell you , you're lying to yourself only . trust me .

Lead people to the right

Love others like your family

Tears cannot change anything that is happening

Smile can change the people who are arounding you

when your tears is droping down ... only making the thing worst ..

(This is what i learn from my own life)

Yesterday was mummy birthday . . hahas . cool . i went to buy cake fro mum . but i forget to take picture of her 40th birthday cake . aiyoyo . so forgetful ... hahas . so sad sia 40th leh . nvm still got10 more years .. 50th birthday . Lol . so lame of me . next year zhonghua is alrdy 100th years old le . omg old than my darling great-grandmother . i also donno her age . i believe mum have a good day today <3>

I remember last year . i don't know what topic both of us are chatting wif . but i know is smth abt great-grandmother . and i start to cry and den he say sorry i donno tht .. -.-"

he have given me lot of joy & sadness .. but i still wanna to thank him for making my life meaningful . thank you .

yesterday until now i have sleep . lol later got church plus i going out wif julieann . i hope i can manage to woke up on time .. dots dots dots .

Anyway morning to everyone first .. LOL

jiejie is still chatting lor . donno with who . diao . Good morning to everyone .. but to me is good night .

Love can be Good & Bad is only have to see you & your lover will do smth silly to hurt you anot..

Love can really change someone life . hope everyone have a good life wif your love one . Smile and let it go ... no matter what has happen between you or lover . that's all . Good bye

당신은 왜 저를 이렇게 깊게 낙상하고 싶었는가?

2010-03-26T06:29:00.000-07:00

Today ... you really upset me alot . I wanan to talk abt tht day things & i really feel sorry for tht day .. so today i wanna to talk to you face to face . but you didn't came to the bus stop today . cos you walk other way .. is my own fault for not telling u tht i waiting for you over there . but why you so sudden change way today . i tot you don like to take tht bus wan . i'm silly & stupid standing there and wait for you !! In the whole world i'm the most stupid girl who waited you over the 40 min like tht . i can't believe tht i am so stupid . and now you ignore me again -.- i really had nth else to say . i can only said " sorry . & i hate you . " tht's all . and i don think you're my good friend anymore D; i really wan to back to few days ago tht you chated wif me on msn . abt your past... Now then i know tht u hurt me alot though today !! O.o

Today , i got SSP wif ms tan . hahas . over there i having alot of jokes sia ... actually is ytd SSP ... but i didn't go cos i tot tht ytd got play bball . but end up don have . My SSP change to friday lor (: since ytd nv play bball . so i went to bring jes sis ... wif joanne & jeslinda . hahas . cool sia .

but today i had a bad day D; cos of him ... Good friend > 250909 <> 260310 <
You really destory my life today .. i droped somewhere near my house . and i walked a longer way home . i half way walking and i cried -.- you dam it . you always make me feels sad . Grrr...

NO MORE LALALA IN MY LIFE

당신이 저를 이렇게 깊은 곳에서 낙상한지 왜, 다만 이 한 쌍 것 때문에. 나는 진짜로 당신이 저에게 최후를 주었다 오후의 정식 방문을 놓친다.

Let It Go ~ Forget It

2010-03-21T11:08:00.000-07:00

Yo Reader ,

Today , I suddenly found one blog that is very important to me last year . I read it and i feel like crying . Cause that blog have alot of past about me ..... I really wanna to back to the past . i rather don wan friend and i choose him . . i regrets but really no use . past is really a past . now is a new start . i shall forget all my past . . I can't forget the past . cause every past really mean alot to me . i wan to go back to past . i miss my past . i love my past . Past i got lot of thing . but now i gain alot alot of thing ~ Why my life so suddenly became like this . i really wanna all the thing back . I just miss my K2 life time . That year really mean alot to me . i wan her back ~~

Should i forget everything ? I don't think i can forget right now ~
Should i give up on the past guy ? I should !!
Will i regret in the end ? Maybe O.o"
Do i really need friend ? Don't Know
Is God really that important to me ? YES . He is very important to everyone .
Can i forget what she said to me and let me leave church ? I hope i could forget .. But i can't
Should i be the real christian ? I should . And i want to be christian . i miss my christian life D;
Am i that stupid ? I am stupid ... cause i do alot of silly things ><
Did i get hurt after all this ? I did . but who knows ? God you know ?

I wanna to go do thing now . today not gonna sleep (:

일부 슈퍼 무작위 게시물

2010-03-19T03:47:00.000-07:00

Hey guys ,

Today i help amber to shower .. She was so good girl along the way i help her shower . hahas . cool ... she sick sia . sad cause . soon i having BBQ ^^ hahas . later den undate more . hehe . nowadays lazy to update blog lah . maybe gonna die liao this blog . . hais . i very bored leh >< hahas . i got lot of thing have to do and i still got homework haven't finish yet ;P

with love,
rebecca phua 8D

I must enjoy this year Sec 2 camp

2010-03-11T13:38:00.000-08:00

Hey guys ,

soon i going to my sec 2 camp . hahas . but today going to study in the morning then afternoon the camp start . . hahas .

Everyone let Smile though this whole camp so you could make the people around you feels better too :)

Sad that i cannot go church tomorrow . hais i wanna to go wan lor . but nvm go this camp . but i am sorry that i told me leader tht i going for this week . And i miss the children too . hais . i wan them D';

To : Someone
Why did you hurt me so much ytd . Angry with me for nothing ==

To: ---- --- ----
How you really understand what i trying to say ><
Maybe is really hurtful to say this to you . but u should know you have also hurt me when i saw tht facebook comments tht u have wrote . i cried cos of ur comments . i have really have nothing else to say . . As long that you really understand . den good lor .
Thank for your understanding yesterday @.@

Got to go ... hahas . i still have to pack something D; Bye (:

~Hope everything will be fine today

2010-03-10T13:00:00.000-08:00

Hey Reader ,

Yupp . I not going to sleep today .. Cause i don't feel any tired , but i know later during lesson will be dam tired for sure ;P hope i won't hehe ... I will still bring my smile to school although i not really very happy to go school nowadays ==

I just hoping that my days will be better today :]
God , I really pray to you ... Everything will be all right today @.@
As i could live with a Smiling face today ... And make the ppl around me happy too (:

Pls lord , i believe that you know what i trying to say today -.-

With love ,

Rebecca Phua

11 March 2010

05:06am

~How My Life Nowadays~

2010-03-10T10:22:00.000-08:00

Halo Guys ,

This coming friday i gonna have a camp in school .. hahas . I just hoping that i could be happy and smiling all the way until this camp over . And i hoping that GMSS got place for me to go in . So i wouldn't be in zhss . . It Really hurt me to stay in 2T1 ..

Hahas as this year camp, we will be mixing with NA & Express people . hahas . So cool rite ... But i also hope tht i nt wif the ppl tht hurting me so badly .

God , i really wanna pary that i won't be with her . pls lord . i really love you . Sat after camp i going to church but i only scare tht the camp ended at 9pm . i pary tht camp end in morning so i can go church and learn lot of things from you . Pary tht won't be rain too (: okayys ? hehe ily alot . Now i know how much i mean to you & the children :) today someone just told me tht she miss me .. How i hope to be wif them every week . i wanna to go back . i miss you , children , baby , adult , some churchmate too ! <3>

Today , i didn't when to school ......... Cause i very scare i will be very angry when i saw that people that say lot of lies to me . D; it hurt alot when she say lies and i trusted her .

My life started to change now ... since feb . but i wanna to thanks the ppl who chat awhile wif me and he did know i very upset ytd 9/3 .... And sorry to one people yesterday i scolded alot of bad words while i trying to asking you something and suddenly scold bad words like no link . SO SORRY ....
I want to say thank you for chatting wif me in msn , phone , sms ...... Giving me wake up today . but i didn't go school today ;p sorry . . .

To: The people that listen to me scold bad words . [sorry]
Thank you for answer my call everytimes . you really dam mature when you on the phone . i only chat with u this few day but i very happy tht i know you . . Can you that you're a dam Good Friend . hahas . thank you . And stop calling me ah phua i hate it !! D; But now then i know tht u scare girls cry . hahas . but i really cannot take it when he ignore me D;

Thank you Joanne For Your Forgiven . I know that i misunderstand you in the first place & i shouldn't kick you . I'm sorry . & I Love You . <3

hahas . i think is late alrdy the time is gonna be 3am soon . i should go rest now . hahas
How i hope that i could smile and forget everything had happen to me & my class . but i hoping i could really open out my heart and smile again . stay as happy as last time . i hope i can . but can i ? i don't think i can . i could smile last time cause i got my God wif me . now i really dont know where is my God ><>

In The Name Of Jesus
Amen

Phua Jie Ying Rebecca
11 March 2010
02:54am
Love God . Love Life . Life People
Hope , Love , Faith .

Only For The Person That Hurt Me

2010-03-10T10:01:00.001-08:00

To : ---- --- ----
Is more hurtful to be with you !!! I really had enough for all your lies to me . you didn't even saw that picture right ? why must you lie to me in the first place , do you know that i started to trust you back .. but you now said lies . i hate it . when people said LIES ............ It's really hurtful when you wanna to turst back . Cause i trust you is really a mistake in the first place . I cried ytd & i don wan come to school today just because of one ppl . YOU REALLY HURT ME ALOT .... I really had enough for all the lies that you have given to me . And pls don bring your trouble to others trouble too ! I won't scold any bad words as i have really taken you as a friend before so i wont scold you anymore . i just wan you to go home and think about it . Now i know the full of hurt tht u have given me . You wan to help keith go ahead . your facebook comment have really tell me your true colours

I really want to be friends with you cause as i talked to you personally you are okayys de . but you just really hurt me in school alot . i don wanna name you out cause you should know who am i taking about now . I shouldn't trust you so much as i did this year . I really get hurted alot from you . i cried ytd coz of all the words tht u comment on facebook .

~It Really Hurt Me Alot

Haiz

2010-03-09T01:48:00.000-08:00

Hey guys ,
since my
last post was like dam long ago . haha . but i only know tht most of the ppl don
reall understand tht i posting all the things her ... NEVER RE-READ WANT =P
hahas . i wanna to sorry abt all this ... hahas . sorry
Normally i
will join Express on thursday for play basketball this week we not going to play
cause tinghong & dingyuan got NCC camp tmr until thursday lols sia . friday
sec 2 still got camp . hahas . they gonna be dam busy this week .. not going to
sms them le (:
Tinghong
wanna to bring phone go Sec 2 camp aiyoyo .... i told him cannot but he don care
. i think he wun bring de lah ... cause he is a Good Boy ><
This few
days happen alot of things tht upset me alot .. And i hope it wouldn't happen to
me again ><>
I use to
loving you 24/7 but now i left you alone . i am really sorry for wat i had done
i really hope tht u can forgive ...
Don't have
you my life was Sucks sia
I lost alot
of friends ==
I miss all
the children that i take care before ...
But is
really hurtful when she told me not to be close to children i don like it where
by ppl call me not to be too close wif CCH ppl !! Is really hurtful to me ... i
remember tht day i walked home ... cause i wanna to cry so i don dare to take
bus . i hate the ppl who said tht to me !!! D';
Is
seriously dam hurtful ... feel tired . gtg ><

19 Feb 2010

2010-02-18T19:37:00.000-08:00

Hello Readers ,
Yesterday i have lot of fun wif dy & th .... We played basketball -.-
But don't why they don't wanna to play with yi dian .... don't the reason leh . but i feel sorry to yidian cause i call him to join me basketball . End up he go cannot play ): I'm Sorry yi dian & sean

And i throw the ball hit until th . Then he should be angry , but he didn't angry with me . So kind of him . hahas . Me & dy is snatching the ball . snatching until hit until his leh =P
I'm sorry to yd , sean , dy , th .... -.- SORRY ... Thanks for forgiving me (:

We play & play suddenly bernard , shi jie & hong yi walk past saw me .... then dy , th wanna to go .... after that they take bag .... i think cause they don wanan to play with them ...

awhile more .....
bernard Said smth nt nice .. donno say to who =.="
play n play dy n th very me .. i win (:

QT join in . den i lose ... actually nobody lose n win .. cause we dont look like playing match . .
play play play ............................ play last 2 ball go home ...

alrdy say last 2 ball .. but th n QT still wanted to play ... dy go ... den 3 min ltr i also go . i walk behind him ... hais , i miss does days tht i wif .... .... .... lalala ... past is past

NOW IS NOW (:

GO HOME POST AGAIN >>>=.=<<<

Happy Chinese New Year

2010-02-13T09:39:00.000-08:00

hahas . Today is the last day i staying in singapore .. hahas . how i hope tht i still in thailand for more days ... cause if i am .... i could go my uncle house stay . so cool or ... i wan to stay at his house for one or two day leh .. but cannot la . tmr gng back to singapore at 2plus pm ... sian lor . i wan to stay in thailand ... coz is like tht don look nice like sinapore did ... but is okay to stay at here lor . over thailand two days cannot use com . coz i staying in hotel two day . den go my uncle friend house to stay .. wa is like dam big lor ... 20 times of my grandma house ... so big 0.o ...

tmr reach sinapore then online .. bb .. good nite

Dam Soon Birthday Coming

2010-02-01T07:16:00.000-08:00

Hello Guys ,
My birthday is coming real soon . 43 min more :D hahas . later den come back this topic . let talk abt those days thing first .

haix . friday didnt when to school . . study at home use computer n do housework . not else to do . i don wanna study :(

lala lala elmo world . hahas . today i going crazy . i also donno why leh .

......

Today when to ikea . cause of the D&T things . den when to den i saw alot of children . i go crazy abt all the children man . .. Lol . On the to Ikea ( in the bus) i sms tinghong n dingyuan ... but only tinghong reply me . haix . nowadays i talk to tinghong more than dingyuan . . nvm . both of us are still friend . diaos sia . .. reach ikea i when to eat something dam nice man... 0330pm go n find teacher den faster run though ... so fun . run around ikea . good tht teachers nv saw us running . hehe . so bad of me . finsih the ikea thing on the way back to sch . when the bus go ... i saw th . n he give me the bird face . so funny ... den i kept disturbing him abt the face ... he call me shut up ... LOL lor . reach sch . i when to take bag den go home . i take bus home wif avril . hehe .. end up i go find song jie . very long time nv saw him alrdy . he so cute lor .

i went to play wif alot of children today :) ohh yeah ... tinghong jealous mah ? you only can play wif javier .. hehe

me n th chat until 10plus . he dam lame sia . tell i going slp le ... awhile tell me . i suddenly don feel like slping . hahas . end up fall asleep . n he said ty to me this morning . hahas . he so kind n good :) i like this GOOD FRIEND THT I HAVE :)
he make my life more meaningful . but i always rmb someone else made my life meaningful last year ... hoho. .

lalala ... i found out tinghong today dam FUNNY :D

Tomorrow donno go where leh . bball or julieann house .... :(

soon .. bday coming :)

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this year i going to said 14 la .. coz i 14 year old SOON ..
hehe

i wanna to do smth else .

Thank You

Shawn you - for calling me this morning .

Joanne you - alwayys play wif me n disturb which i don like . but u really care alot for ur friend . i love you :) hehe .... thank you for every day call me in the morning . to double chk i woke up alrdy anot n alone waiting for me at bus stop .

Qi tai - thanks for ur happy birthday n tag .

Ms peck & yi jing - Thanks for ur birthday wish too :D i love you

Keith - thank you for the peace for today

Adele - thank you for being my mummy in class . you show me the care tht i nid :)

Avril - alwayys be with me . caring n loving me :D i love you

Bernard , adele , peijing , xiu wei , wei hong , keith ... i donno still got who - thanks for the birthday song tht u guys sing to me this afternoon in bus ... 13 more min . bday comes . haix . sian .

Rebekah/charlotte - thanks for the help ( at ikea ) ... hehe . i love you too :)

zi ying - thanks for ur ^^ CG :)

Tinghong - Thanks for the morning call last week u give me ... thank you for today making me smile n laugh all the way . you r really like good friend man :)Making my life today so meaningful ... sms until my mum tot i crazy . laugh to the phone !! grrrr ... hehe thank you

dingyuan -i don wanna thks him first . see whether he will do anot first .. grrr ... qi si wo le ... oh my chinese became better . :)

got go 8 min ... see whether i can post ltr anot . or tmr . coz i dam tired to day .. hoho . i donno wat did i typed just now

BRB

wat sould i do ?

2010-01-24T03:31:00.000-08:00

Do you really told your sergeant that you like me ?
Is this a dream ?

I can say tht i don like u n u also can say tht u don like me . but i trying to forget everything . but y ur sergeant still tell me tht . n y u go find out abt it . coz i cant lie to myself tht i don like you . n i like someone else . i can also rmb the day we being tgt n have lot of fun . i couldn't forget abt it . i donno u got forgotten the day we met . but i could alwayy rmb . coz i still like u like last time i did . y r u dng this to me . i know tht i am wrong in the first place . but y cant u forget abt it .

i feel very tired . i wanna u back . i know i cant . but i just wanna to wish tht u can find ur love one day . live in peace n joy . take care ah !

lalala . some random post

2010-01-19T10:44:00.000-08:00

haix . ytd morning feels sick den go sick bay . sian . slp for 2h den go eat . is like dam fun but actually nt tht fun like wan i think . is just like boring !!! lols . tmr den talk more abt it . but i don think i will use computer tmr . hehe . see first :)

Good Night later still gt school . i now den slp haix . so bad of me

~Thank You For Those People~

2010-01-15T23:42:00.000-08:00

Nowadays , i don't really post . cause i started to go CCA :)

It was tired . but when u go longer is like dam fun .. hahas . i enjoy my life in zhonghua . i still think whether wan to go bowen or stay in zhonghua .

if i go bowen ... i got my sis n pri sch fri . i wan to go bowen coz . if something sad happen on my sis . i can be wif her all time . .

i will miss zhonghua for sure if i , bleave . coz of joanne , avril , julieann , alisha , zi ying , sim ee , esther , si min , peijing ball friend ? , tinghong , ding yuan , yi dian , nigel ong , nigel song , jing shen , shi jie , jeslinda .....

Joanne - she the one who make make me stand up in school . something happen to me she will be there for me :)

Avril - she friendly . when i nid help she also will be there .

julieann - hahas . i like to disturb her . if she nt wif me . my life will be dam bored .. -.-

Alisha - she alwayys act cool . but she loves to joke around us .

Zi ying - when i upset . she will make me happy n forget all the unhappy thing . i cried she hug me . she just like me boyfriend ;)

Sim ee - when i also get into relationship . she will teach me wat to do . she alwayys told me tht love is selfish . but to me is nt . love is fair . u may let others for it . maybe relatingship is really nt tht impt to me . hahas . thks .

Esther - my honey . she cute , friendly , mature .. sometime brings me joke :D ily

Si min - she my pri sch fri . she very caring . if shehave problem . she will share wif sime ee . sometime me also . i hope she wun change sch .

Pei jing - last time i don like her . coz she talk bad behind me == , but i nv talk bad her . why she talk bad me ?? :( but nowaday she changed alot . so i start to love her like a sister .

Basketball Friends - when i wanna to give up in bball . they r the one who made me enjoy bball . is tired . but between everyone there is alwayys a joy inside after bball training ... bball team is jux like a family . thks for bring me the joy n made me stand , nt give up . ily ...

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HuangTingHong(黄庭鸿) - last time we use to hate each others . coz he also don silly thing . scold silly words on me ..... but when we became good friend tht days onward . i gt problem wif dy . i will tell him . coz he will alwayys help us . . hahas . help n help . . end up i know lot of things abt him . he gt lot of things tht i can laugh wif it . hehe . we became more n more close . jux like a gd frien :) but we both alrdy good friend since 25 sep 09 .. hahas . i can alwayys rmb coz it was in the morning . 0630am . lol . so cool . lala . he just like my bro like tht . nth more or less . both of us r left handle n love ....... alot :D haha . he dam kind if u talk to him personally .
sometime u msg him he will scold u stup up coz he playing dota . donno y guy like to dota alot .
sometimes i will join them play .( if i reach home early ) =.= "' i think th has a wonderful mind set .

ChuaDingYuan(蔡定愿)- last time we use to talk alot everydays . but nowadays we don . coz i alwayys like to find problem to him during sep n oct . i find things to augre wif him .
for does who really wanna know . did i like him . yes, but is last time .
sometime i think tht like him . is a most silly things i nv did be4 . but when i wanna to hate him . i alway rmb the time where by we have jokes ...n i nv forget the smile tht we had be4 :)
i wanan cried . coz i feel sry to him . i just like an idiot . do stupid ... am sry . but everything have alrdy changed . so is no point . saying tht i like him anymore .... but as long tht we still gd friend .. but nt tht really close like last time . he is a good man tht girl nid . . . he is caring . but ......... thts all i have to said abt him -.-

NgYiDian - he is a good man .... use to go church last time . but nowadays he nv go . i think tht is some reason tht he don wanan tell me . but as long tht . he still being himself . nv change . still tht blur , kind, caring , helpful . oh yeah n funny :D
he bring my life into lot of joy . of coz nt only him . he is from my pri sch n church . so i don hope . tht others will say me n him again . pls . both of us really is just friend . nt more or less . thts all =.= ( blur king)

Nigel Ong - A guy who love to draw .. hahas . i love his drawing alot :) he is my pri sch friend also . he has a kind soul to other . but nt me ;( donno y leh .. hahas joking . he is a loving , caring , helping , peaceful guy tht i nv knew be4 . hehe . i very happy tht i have this friend wif me in zhonghua sec sch ... he is also FUNNY WAN :)

Nigle Song - i love to disturb him in class n after school . coz he alwayys let ppl bully n disturb . coz he is too kind until cannot say . hehe . he have a kind heart if he nv being to close to bernard they all !!! (hehe am sry ) but is seriously .

HeeJingShen - he very kind to me :)

TangShiJing - wa this ppl hor . alwayys do silly things . i alway wanna to scold him ... garrrr .... u so kind . but u alwayys do stupid thing . end up give ppl scold only . pls don do tht again . shijie didi

Jeslinda Tan - lashehe i loves to disturb her when after sch or when she working ... coz she is like so fun to be wif n disturb . hoho ...... helpful one :)

lastly .. i only know Sean Tan for don year . ?? but we only really talk is on this year . he dam good . i alwayys ask avril , joanne , tinghong , dingyuan n him (sean) .... avril got call ... tinghong is msg or nv -.- , dy sometime msg, call, nv call n msg == joanne is the real powerful woman tht can really wake me up :)
Sean . he call n msg to remind me to bring things..... thanks alot .

dingyuan - we have lot of fun time . thks for making my life so meaningful .
tinghong - u bring the stupid words !!!
joanne you jia hui - u made my life dam meaningful . i live for you :)

thank you for all those things tht happen last year . i had learned alot of thing those last year . thanks everybody ....

tinghong u just being cute in some way
thks

hahas. i playing wif alot of language :)

2010-01-11T07:25:00.000-08:00

Can I stop thinking of you?

Can I try to hate you?

Am I really in love with you?

I think I just being a silly girl who likes you so much.

And I regret that I don’t listen to my friends that love is selfish.

And now I found out I am the one who being selfish to him last time, I really regret it.

I always said that you hurt me a lot. But actually I am the one who hurting you more than you did to me.

I wanted to restart. But now you don’t want. Is okay to me ,coz last time I being so selfish to you.

You should hate me more than I did. If I not wrong. You regret that you like me before too right?

당신은 생각의 중지할 수 있습니까? 당신이 증오로 보십시오? 정말 당신이 사랑에 내가? 난 그냥 바보 같은 여자가 정말 좋아하는 것으로 생각합니다. 그리고 나는 후회 사랑은 이기적인 있는지 내 친구에게 듣지 마세요. 그리고 지금 내가 한 나는 밖으로 발견 난 정말 그것을 누가 그를 이기적인 마지막 당분간, 후회. 난 항상 당신을 많이 날 해칠 것을 말했다. 하지만 실제로 난 사람은 당신이 아프게 날 당신보다 더 않았다. 난 다시 싶었어요. 하지만 이제 싶지 않아. 좋아 나를 위해, coz 마지막으로 나는 수 그래서 이기적인 것이 있다. 내가 이상의 날 싫어 합니다. 않은 잘못된 경우. 당신은 당신이 전에 같은 후회하지 너무 오른쪽?

思考の使用を停止することができますか。嫌いしようできますか。僕は恋に、本当ですか。私だけで、あまり好きな愚かな少女を中だと思います。私は愛が勝手なことだと私の友人を待機しないことを後悔します。今はものを私が人は、最後には彼に利己的な中、私はも後悔します。私は常に、私が多くを傷つけることを言った。しかし、実際に私を害したより、私にしたものです。再起動たかった。ここで使用します。それでは私に、coz 最後に私をそう勝手なことです。私を憎むべき以上を尽くした。私が間違っている場合。私の前に好きなことを後悔も右か。

我可以停止想你嗎？我可以試著恨你嗎？我是真的愛著你嗎？我想我只是一個傻女孩喜歡你這麼多了。我很抱歉我 don’t 聽我的愛是自私的朋友們。現在我發現我是一個被自私了，他最後一次的人，我真後悔。我總是說：你傷害了我很多。但其實我是一個人比你更是我傷害你。我想要重新開機。但是，現在希望 don’t。是好的我因為最後一次我被你這麼自私。你應恨我比我做了。如果我沒有錯。你後悔你喜歡我之前太好嗎？

Kan jag sluta tänka er? Kan jag prova att hata du? Jag verkligen i kärlek med dig? Jag tror jag bara att en dum Tjej som gillar du så mycket. Och jag beklagar att jag inte lyssna till mina vänner att kärlek är själviska. Och nu fick jag veta är jag som är själviska honom förra gången, jag beklagar verkligen det. Jag har alltid sagt att ni skadar mig mycket. Men egentligen är jag den som skada du mer än du gjorde för mig. Jag ville starta om. Men nu vill inte. Är okej för mig, coz förra gången jag vara så själviska till dig. Du bör hatar mig mer än jag gjorde. Om jag inte fel. Ni beklagar att du gillar mig innan alltför rätt?

我可以停止想你吗？我可以试着恨你吗？我是真的爱着你吗？我想我只是一个傻女孩喜欢你这么多了。我很抱歉我不听我的爱是自私的朋友们。现在我发现我是一个被自私了，他最后一次的人，我真后悔。我总是说：你伤害了我很多。但其实我是一个人比你更是我伤害你。我想要重新启动。但你现在不想要。是好的我因为最后一次我被你这么自私。你应恨我比我做了。如果我没有错。你后悔你喜欢我之前太好吗？

האם אני יכול להפסיק לחשוב עליך? ניתן לנסות שונאת אותך? אני ממש מאוהבת בו? אני חושב שאני פשוט להיות נערה טיפש מי אוהב אותך כל כך. וכן, אני מצטער שאני לא להקשיב לחברים שלי אהבה היא אנוכית. עכשיו מצאתי אני אחד שיכול להיות אנוכי לו בפעם האחרונה, אני באמת מצטער עליו. תמיד אמרתי אתה פוגע בי הרבה. אבל בעצם אני אשר לפגוע לך יותר אתה עשו לי. רציתי מחדש. אך כעת אינך מעוניין. האם אוקיי לי, coz בפעם האחרונה אני להיות אנוכי ולכן עבורך. אתה צריך לשנוא אותי יותר שעשיתי. אם אני לא רע. מצטער אוהב אותי לפני ימינה מדי?

ฉันสามารถหยุดการคิดของคุณหรือไม่ ฉันสามารถทดลองการเกลียดชังคุณได้หรือไม่ am ฉันจริง ๆ ในความรักกับคุณหรือไม่ ฉันคิดว่า ฉันเพิ่งถูกหญิงสาวเป็นเซ่อที่ชอบคุณมาก และฉันว่า ฉันไม่ฟังเพื่อนของฉันว่ารัก selfish regret และตอนนี้ ฉันพบออกผมหนึ่งผู้ถูก selfish กับเขาครั้งสุดท้าย ฉันจริง ๆ regret นั้น ฉันเสมอว่า ว่า คุณเจ็บฉันมาก แต่จริง ๆ แล้ว ผมหนึ่งที่ hurting คุณมากกว่าคุณไม่ให้ฉัน ฉันต้องการที่เริ่มต้นขึ้น แต่ตอนนี้ คุณไม่ต้อง เป็นตกลงให้ฉัน coz ครั้งสุดท้ายฉันถูก selfish ดังนั้นเพื่อให้คุณ คุณควรเกลียดชังฉัน มากกว่าฉันได้ ถ้าไม่ถูกต้องไม่ คุณ regret ว่า คุณชอบฉันก่อนเกินไป right

2010-01-10T06:15:00.000-08:00

我希望你的心也没变。我的心永远在你那。。。

2010-01-10T05:12:00.000-08:00

Hey Guys ,

I'm here to share my holiday :)

hahas . let talk abt nov first xD

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i having camp on nov . hahas . it was dam fun . cool man . this camp held at pulau ubin O.o cannot bring phone :(

hehe . i alwayys like to said this " i cant live without phone " . but actually i can live without phone lor . after the camp i when back home n have a good bathe n sleep .

Holidays i don really reply others ppl msg :) hehe . only reply some . joanne alwayys msg me but i didnt reply . so end up she will call me =P i feel sorry to her =D

hope shecan understand .

camp was fun n also tired -.-

aat the camp there i learn to be independent , to be strong , cares .. i learn the most things is " Teamwork" hahas .

i love this camp . but sad thing is i cried D; coz part of this camp have to walk alone in the dark . so i very scare .. n over there it sound very scary in the nite =.= "

while i crying . i started to miss someone . but i don think he will cares abt me alrdy . will i regret in everything i did to him . hahas .. i did regret alot of things . in zhonghua i only feel very sry to him n joanne. . n if i change sch to bowen . i will cry . just becoz of joanne n 6 more ppl D;

Dec i had alot of BBQ . . almost everyday BBQ man . hahas .
but i can alwayys rmb . how u feel when u taking care of baby . hoho . i cool man ... i miss the days . when i having fun with song jie n amber . i miss both of them man . amber when back to malaysia . feb den come back . haix . feb i gng to thailand . march gng to malaysia . sian lor .
gng to thailand with aunty , uncle n cousin . so total only gt 4 ppl . . aunty n uncle one room . den me n my cousin one room . it gng to be fun man . i nt bring phone to go . coz i only go 3 days :)

i wanan to go visit my uncle who live in thailand . but my father said cannot . coz my uncle don like anyone to know where he stay . this year my uncle nt coming back to singapore . so sad ... haix ya . i wanna to go visit others cousin over there . but cant leh . sad case man .

i miss amber , qiao ru ... hmm ... QR when u coming back . i miss u ....

Amber Tan Jing Yi - joanna , rebecca , ziling , weikang , yenyen all miss you alot alot lor . faster come back pls .
another sad thing . i gng to thailang at 11 or 12 feb == den 13 or 14 feb come back to singapore . maybe i nt gng to get hongbao ... lols . . n i cant visit alot of ppl . hahas . when we gng to oversea . binghong n weixiang nt gng wif us . lols . but gd thing is they don have to go sch too !!! lols . hehe . cool man . i will miss them wan !!! see i so faithful to my younger cousin :)

hmm .... but when sch start . i don really have time to slp . coz holiday alwayys slp at morning . =P at least give my mum scold == she alwayys scold my sis wan . but on the sat . i give her scold also lor . i wanna to hate my mum . but i cant . coz i can say tht i hate her on the outside . but do i really mean it ? no , i don . coz she my mum i alwayys love her . nt hates !!

and i hope tht my classmate . wun said anything abt last year . -.-
anw . i also like no one . pls .

yeah i also feel sry to cheryl . i alway told her tht i wanna go church . but end up nv go ... i'm sry cheryl . i hope tht u will 4give me .
i think tht the church children n baby all forget me alrdy . coz i nv go since 3 month ago .. -.-
sry God , pastors , leaders n the friends who cares abt me .

But i will work for the best from today onward . i hope God will help me too . in sch , church, home . i will do the best . n even outside too :)

Am sorry . all my post alwayys have mistake . hope u can understand :D
Thank You "=.="

Luke 2:52

In The Name Of Jesus
Amen

Dec life 1

2010-01-04T07:15:00.000-08:00

today is my first day of sec 2 .... be4 gng to sch , i was very happy . but when the go back to class after tht i don really feel good .. but at least i know whose my friends n whose nt....
i like zhss alot . coz i gt alot of express friend . NT i don really have friends ... maybe Nt no one will understand me more than the express friend tht i had . last time sec1 i enjoy being wif 1E1 ... haha but nowadays . i don really wanna talk to anyone . i wanna to live a life "simple"
but no one will know how simple i am ... everyone tot tht i am bad, noob . i cant do anything . yeah maybe i just cant .

today wen back school take report book ... hahas istil chat wif mrs ng leh . very long time nv see her le . she still so nice :) hahas
igo read my sec n pri sch report book .when iread untilpri sch report book . i cried very long . i really regret alot tht . when i P5 kept skip sch ... i hate it....
for wat i think if i am last time de rebecca . for sure tht i have alot of friends in NT ... but now i am diff .. coz i changed .... is nt easy to live a nes life in zhss .... how i hope P5 tht timei study hard den i will go NA or express ... haix . who call last time de me so childish wan . now i know wat is rite n wrong ... i don feel like gng sch . i know tht i am wrong . but serious tmr i don feel like gng . coz ez link lost . i hate to lost ez link . every year i lost ez link . ..... -.-

today i really cried alot ... i tot tht when i grow older i wun be crying again . but today first days of sec 2 i cry ....

yeah ... my sister just called me n tell me she found my ez link . so tmr must go school =)
lols . but i still don enjoy school .

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Dec lazy to update . hahas .

now i finally understand . ifuwanan to take care a baby or children is really nt tht easy like u guy think ... coz i had tried be4 on Dec lot of time -.-
is tried to take care baby . but i know the happiness of taking care a baby for very long hour . i love baby , children ... but nw i know who is the most impt ppl to me

................. bye bye

2009-12-18T13:39:00.000-08:00

Love Rules

♥-------------------♥

Never allow your partner or yourself to denigrate the other.

You must have personal respect and consideration for yourself.

Everyone deserves respect and love, but you can't expect to get it unless you give it.

If you allow your partner to disparage you, expect to hear other damaging words.

Whatever you are willing to accept is exactly what you're going to get.

Be compassionate, understanding, forgiving and merciful.

Patience, kindness, consideration and thoughtfulness can never be in short demand.

Never let a person use names or words to hurt or degrade you or your partner.

Vow to protect yourself from thoughtless, rude, mean or punishing behavior.

If destructive words are being used, for whatever the reason, it must Stop. If not, a relationship can't survive.

Once you've reacted you can then be proactive.

A controlled mouth shows a controlled mind. Use words for empowerment, encouragement and positive recognition.

♥안녕히 주무십시요♥

2009-12-18T13:14:00.000-08:00

hahas . lazy to post . hmm ... sunday or tmr post ??? hahas
tmr n sun busy :D
23 to 24 chalet :) 2days 1nites lols
22 go Shopping
31 countdown =)

♥♥♥카운트 다운입니다. 그래, 나도 사랑해♥♥♥

2009-12-18T11:09:00.000-08:00

My name is : 여자 이름.

24 Nov - 26 Nov 3days 2 nites camp :)

2009-12-06T09:36:00.000-08:00

Hello Reader ,

hahas. The camp was dam fun .. i still wanna to go . hehe .but cant :( coz one ppl only can go one times ......

after the camp everyone wanna to be the volunteer ... hahas . but joanna told us tht she will choose the older ppl first .. if don have den she will choose us :)

24 nov , tue . Day 1

On the first days . everyone must reach REACH FSC at 0815am . hahas . den alot of ppl reach at 0830 like tht . hehe . 8plus the Bus come alrdy :D hahas . den we when up to the Bus going to Republic poly . haix reach RP .. den everyone go to sport complex there . sian lo . stay at RP pack things until 11 plus =.= Oh ya , we cannot bring phone along too !!! Sad lor :(

for me cannot msg will died . but i without phone 3 day 2 nites ... wun die wor O.o hahas

coool man !! xin yi & dee teach us how to pack ... we take alot of things lo ..

benjamin bully me & jeslinda .... we have to listen , coz he is food IC -.-

finish packing . everyone take bus again . to changi .....

Wa , from woodland to changi is dam FAST de lor ... everyone talk & talk awhile den when to slp in bus . hehe =P i like this way of my life . take bus from west to east . cool man .

coz i can watch the blue & white sky :) yeah & also green trees around us . but so sad if got music will be better & more happy for me =.=" haix , cannot bring phone .....

then we reach the place where by we have to take the boat to pulau ubin :D so happy , cant wait like tht lor . Me =P

coz in my life i only take boat once only . 24 nov is the 2nd time ... oh my , tht was fun .

hmmm ......... 12 ppl go first . hahas .

over den i still met alot of new friends :)

jun yuan , quan sheng , we chern , darryl , eidde , muhammad ,brandon still got more. hahas . but pulau ubin eidde nv go . coz he cannot . ==

hahahahaha ... reach PU =) still at there wait for 2 more boat to come . coz some camper take the 2nd or 3th boat . some ppl take first boat . i'm one of the m :)

in pulau ubin , they live in peace & alot of freedom . like no police & law like tht . but very bored & over there also got lot of DOG . hmmm .... so scaryyyyyy -.-

but is all ok . if u don disturb them can liao . oh ya also cannot take lot of food out !!! coz the dog wan to eat things . so if they saw . u must becareful , if tht dog kep following u .. he trying to eat ur Foods ... 0.o

Everyone reach pulau ubin alrdy . den we walk to somewhere tht can eat ~.~

hahas . after eating , we looking at the map . think of a way to go to the place where we going to slp on the two nites .. hahas . walk for 4hour with a big bag . Omg i wanna to die . i take alot of things -.- sian lor .

Reach the place at 5place . Girls go wash up first . den the boys cook . hahas . den me & jes wash up finish den we when back and eat . ah ben is cooking . hmmm .... smell nice . eat into mouth . normal lah . hahas . not bad ah ah ben .

finish eating the guys go bath den me & jes go pack things . den suddenly 8 plus got nites walk . OMG O.o more scaryyy ... hmm .. i wan mummy ... :( i very scare . coz very dark ...

after tht they wanna us to walk solo ... alone .. in the dark without light & other ppl ... only got moon & some sound .it sound so scary to me ... i going to solo soon tht time ...

i jux walk & walk. suddenly hear alot of scary sound ... like got monkey ... i start crying . but when i start crying awhile more . i reach the place where by some of my friends is ...

hmm . den i lie on QS back and look at the moon cry . coz i think of lot of things . wa . this is the first time (if i nt wrong) lying at a guy back . =.= " but to me he is like me kor . he very funny . -.-

after tht jeslyn come rdy . den i lie on her back look at the moon . nv cry coz tht time got alot of ppl liao . don dare to cry infornt of so many ppl =P

after everyone come back . 10 or 11 plus . we got back to the RP place at pulau ubin . den dee & xin yi call us to go slp .. 12 the like must be off . or else dee will find smth for us to do ... i don wan . so be a good girl go sleep . . over there cannot really slp wan ==

25 Nov , wed . Day 2

hahas . Day 2 , wake up very early 6plus . lol . coz the boys talk very loud +.- grrr ... i wan to slp wan !!! den nvm me & jes go wash face all this ... den go eat . . eat finish i go disturb QS . i alwayys put his ear wan . :D he nv angry wan . hehe .

8am dee meet to sea leaders . Darryl , brandon , yew teck And lastly benjamin =.=

0830am dee meet everyone abt the kayaing . ( ??? i spell wrongly???) hmm .. sian .

after tht everyone go take smth .. 11plus go sea liao . abit scare . but nth wan lo . me & jes cannot be together coz we two r girl . den jes and ken take one kaya boat . den me & yew teck =.=

coz jeslinda donno who to choose den i also . but end up i know tht yew teck is left&right handle . so i choose him =.= "

yeah out to the sea alrdy . so happy :) coz see lot of things around me .

with yew teck . i no need to do anything wan . i just rest can liao . me & YT kaya until ery fast . . coz he very pro in kaya mahhs . hahas .. after tht . leaders meeting . haix ya . YT leader so i also can listen to the leaders meeting . lol . so cool lor. brandon don really know how to lead in the sea . so end up change to YT lead way for everyone . darryl take care right . brandon take care left ( but he alwayys wanna to over take us == ) Ben take behind ( coz he very slow . Lol)

Yew Teck lead very well .. but one guy got sea sick he need to rest . cannot kaya . den YT go take care him . so he changed sit ... den we can move faster :)

Oh . he nt me le . i very tired now . coz i cannot rest . i kaya until nv stop . YT also . hahas . he so kind lor . go change sit den kaya all the way alone . the guy jux behind him n slp . coz he sick -.-

Change until a little boy for me . i need to kaya all the way den the boat will move if nt . haix . the boat wun move wan . . lols . i told myself , if yewteck can y i can not ??? so i do my best . hahas . my boat didnt move as fast as jus nw . hahas. YT u dam zi lor . i know y he so tired alrdy ..

jes so relax lor . aiyo .

end up change again . nvm .. but i mind is changed a little boy again . this one more die . coz with him i become blur blur liao .

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(o.o) <-- tht wat my face is .

den end up we got back . coz alrdy very late . we at the sea abt 4hours . wa is like den long lah the time =.="' lols .

We didnt reach the point. but is all rite . as long tht we have fun and all this is all abt trusting each others . But the most importantly is all about the Teamwork tht we have .

We don have lot of teamwork .

But is okayys , coz lose doesn't mean the end . learn a new when u lose .

win also doesn't mean the end. when u win smth . u can still learn more things of it . don have to stop learning . u win first time doesnt mean u could win again . the loser also can win u next time .

Win & Lose doesn't mean you have everything . And not even the world .

The Winer could lose next time .

The Loser could win next time .

Most imptly is happiness & the fun u had . nth more or less !! :)

hahas . actually i donno wat i'm trying to say =P hehe

we go back n keep the boat =.=

den jump into water . hahas . lol . swim awhile . chat . den go back n wast up =D

eat , chat . dng others until 11 plus like tht go back slp =)

26 Nov , Thu Day 3

Wake up .

eat , packing , wash up ... walk to the base . take boat back to singapore . reach singapore tht time is abt 10 plus . we chk in . den donno why the darryl quarrel wif the police . den alot of ppl waiting for them in the bus . for 30 to 1 hour between . lalala ... time past dam fast . darryl come back alrdy . we can take the bus . all the way to woodland . hahas .

reach republic poly . we take out all the things we bring to there . pack them at a place . den go clean smth things together wif the camper . lol . so fun . we play water .

hahas . after tht . finish we go one room rest . watch video , chat , play , write smth ...

Oh yeah ,before forget . we play a games . the ppl who standing upstairs have to trust the ppl who having teamwork downstairs . lol . i'm the last ppl . so scary . u need to stand den lie down in the air .. fall on . hmm ... becoz of joanne fu . i trust her alot . i don dare to lie . but she told me this " trust me , if smth happen to you . i will be here . "

hmm . i nv seem ppl said this words so serious . until i trusted her . so i closed me eyes lied in the air . oh my tht was scary . hahas . but i did a good job . n of coz others ppl did it too . a few ppl nv did it . but is okayys . nvm . is jux a small thing . hahas .

after all this is gng to end soon . abt 5plus we take our thing , phone , cash back everyone faster use phone . hahas . we took last photo . hahas . den everyone dismiss . at the republic poly there . den we take the bus to bishan . joanne dismiss us at there . hahas . den we plan to have badminton for other days ... it held on a tue . lol .

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this few days . i kept hanging out wif the REACH FSC friends or joanne you only .

we when to play badminton today . jes bring her cousin along . i also . lols . so fun . but very tired . hahas . cool . maybe next week we changed to others sports like basketball . hehe . i asked joanne fu today . she agree .. so maybe next time we go bishan n have bball . hahas . i love it

jeslinda , joanne you , me , jes cousin , my cousin n his friend , yew teck , joanne fu , benjamin foo , ken , xiu wei , we chern , QS , shawn you , ting yi , eidde n his sis , annabel... few more i donno they're name .

hope everyone today have fun . lol .

me & tht ppl . nt friend anymore . hahas . i hate him . =P

I LOVE JOANNE YOU JIA HUI <3 :)

Dec gonna be dam busy lor . sian . i still think wan to go wild wild wet anot .

we gng to have chalet :) yeah

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9 Dec , Tue . Today

hahas . ytd joanne sms me . 9am wake up call . but end up . 8plus call until my phone . dam hot . coz she spam call until like siao . Total : 80plus miss call / 3 to 5 msg .. grrrr .... wake up at 9 plus . i pack thing , change shirt , eat den go meet joanne . hahas . i cannot go in coz i wear outside shirt . lol . hahas . joanne go in herself . den i go meet jeslinda . den jes reach liao . joanne also finish buying books .so we meet to go joanne house mac eat . she have to go home put the books . den abt 12plus joanne meet us back . den told us this .. wait for my bro he donno how to go . is like diaos . sec3 donno how to go .

hehe . his bro come alrdy . den we go srg together . after tht reach liao . GO PLAY BADMINTON =D

lols . i am so lame .

play play play until 5pm . go buy drink :) den go joanne house take PSP games from her . . hahas . go back home watch TV , bathe den go slp for 3 hour . DEN online :)

Edit picture .. i only slp for 3hour ytd . today also same things happen =.="'

Bye ^.^

Love God , Love Life , Love People <3

Living in faith . love . hope

And alsoooooo Jesus Christ

In the name of Jesus

Amen

Good Morning Guy

2009-11-23T14:39:00.001-08:00

26 Nov will Update and reply ur tag :)
Thks for reading anyway
Going for camp now . Bye bye

Love God , Love People , Love Life

Thurday after camp going to rush down to xinmin =)
follow rebecca koh take result ==
haix . hope she get a good result =D

Haix

2009-11-18T10:26:00.000-08:00

hahas . tomorrow got camp from 0815am to 10pm .. wa .. so late sian lo ... den today i not going to sleep ... coz now alrdy 2plus . i know tt i wun wake up on time . if i slp nw .. so i choose nt to slp . i meeting jes at 7 plus .. i scare tt tmr i will be dam tired ... den get sick again ..

i alwayys sick is because of ... nv slp on time,nv eat on time,play sports until over time ... haix ...
tmr donno got bball anot == but got also cannot go -.- coz of tt camp ..

i just wanna to say " i wanna to stop the time !!! " -.-

life for me .. is like dam bored alrdy == but i very happy being wif song jie =D

today my bro call me go down and buy thing for him .. den i saw song jie wif his grandpa =.="' hahas ... den i tell him ltr i come down again .. i faster rush home ... after tt come down again . ;)
play wif he and bring him to mac ... song jie de age is abt javier den age ... i bring him go mac n eat =) i buy happy meal for him ^^ after tt i bring him to toilet n wash hand .. wahahaha .. come out den saw his mum ... we go back to the block n play !! xD xD xD xD ... play until 7plus go home watch tv n den very bored so i go find things to do .. like pack my thing =.~ lols .. pack until 11plus =) i crazy !!! =P

now i donno wat to do .. coz i still got 4hour to go den .. jiu have to go bishan == meet to camper over there .. i hope ltr i wun faint !!!!!!!!!

pls .. i pary to u .. tt ltr i wun fall asleep n i wun faint == ... thank you

This is the first time i do poem =P

2009-11-15T22:16:00.000-08:00

I am not good in anything .
And i wondering why school is so hard for me .
I hear music , i see movie , i learn alot of things .
I wants to have more friends to care for .
I feel nervous and uncomfortable in school .
And i even feel lonely sometimes .
I worry about those people around me .
And i also wondering do they worry about me ?
I care for them more than i care for my family.
But do they care like what i do?
They dont understand me . but is okay .
As long that i understand them
I tried to be more happy and forget those unhappy things .
But can i really forget about it ?
Can i forgot the hurt that they given to me

No matter what happen i know that God will alwayys beside me and help me up , with all my unhappy things and trouble ..
No matter how hurt it is , i will stay strong with my feelings until the end .

And i have a BIG VISION
I dream to be a doctor to save people .
I hope i'm good in studies .
If i really good in studies .
I could go around the world to save people .

After saving people , i want them to live with meaningful life ..
And of cause live with this six words too !!
LOVE . HOPE . FAITH
Love God , Love Life , Love People

That's all can makes me Happy For Life

Hey Guys ,
Remember life is meaningful and love those people who still around you don wait until they're not with you.. End up you will regrets for life.

Maybe u don feel that now you will gain any people around you . but maybe you will gain it soon .. This type of things no one will know . but only God . =.='''

pls don wait until you really gain den regret it !!!

Hope you enjoy reading my first poem -.-
and also understand this poem meaning .
Thank You For Reading It

10 Nov 2009

2009-11-09T08:59:00.000-08:00

hahas ... those days abit tired , bored , happy , sad and even cry ... all have !! haix

tired - coz play wif hui lin bro n sis ... wa .. her bro run very fast sia .. hahas .. (both r 4 year old )
go chalet for 3days 2 nite ... play over there ... until 2 plus den slp ... first day i play until 2 plus ... den msg dy until 11 or 10 plus ... hahas .. bt tt days msg th until laters ... normally i msg both of them .. is th slp first lo .. bt tt day is dy slp first .. lol ... dy is my best friend ... th is my good friend .. maybe also like my bro like tt == hahas ....chalet was fun ... after chalet .. me , hui lin , zhi long , rebecca chew go wild wild wet ... den i dam noob == i go 0.6 m like swim ... i go so low coz i donno how to swim .. == den i learning ... swim half way ... my head hit on the floor -.- so pain .. i wanna to cry .. hahas . no la .. rebecca phua wun cry easily ... . hehe ... den nw joanne call me goldfish ... haix ya ... sian ... it is very painful when i hit the floor ... bt now is okay =) coz i am rebecca .. fall down don cry wan ... bt only get hurt easily in friendship or releationship things == haha .. normally i get hurt is becoz of friendship de thing .. cn i really believe in my friend ??? yeah , i can =D

bored , coz this week nv really go out ... == ... bt today juc went out wif julieann =D she so kind i ask her out everything .. she nv reject me once ;D

happy - coz i spent lot of time playing wif hui yi n zhi xiang ;D

sad - mum go malaysia , haven come back == wed coming back =D haix , n i got camp tmr -.- i don feel like gng

cry - hui lin grandma hate me . coz i call her up n said " u alone at home must becareful , coz no one at home" den she though i wanna to call my friends to rob her ==

i don do thing like tt .. if i do .. den i beark singapore rule le -.-

haha
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hahas .. th gng to china tmr .. hahas ... jux nw got msg him -.- hahas .. i scold him .hehe bt nw nth le . =P HTH must rmb wat i tell u hor ... == hahas . tmr cnnt msg him le .. hahas ... i planing to go out wif dy , ct , rebekah , th , xw , jav <-- omg all couple .. haha .. joking .. he th scold me again == i only tell dy tt maybe gng to www ... bt we wait for th to come back from china first .. den i will ask xw , rebekah , ct ... hahas . i don feel like gng wif them .. i like the LB

hahas .. tinghong , dingyuan ,, == Me
3 of us don wanna to get into relatetionship ... bt u cn still like them ....
for
dingyuan he wanna to std when is sec 3 or 4 ...
tinghong he only said wait until the age == lol

i wanna to said " when love really comes , for sure tt no need wait until sec 3 or 4 ... or even no need wait until the age comes ... " bt u have to think be4 u get into a relatetionship ... is nt easy to make a guy like u for long (for sure) =P .. hahas ...

hahas . i don like them k == lols
i waiting for dec to come ... den i cn tried to go bowen .. bt now i have to think of the reason to change school .. worho =D =D
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living wif myself is very bored .. i rmb those time where by i in church .. learn the words of God ... playing wif lot of children .. parying God .. listen to his own words to me =D
those days is better than now .. i alrdy 2 to 3 month nv go church le .. i miss those life .. but i have to study more ...

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God ,
i am sorry , that i leave heart of God church for 2 month like that ... i will go back .. when the time hads come .. i loves pastors , children , adult , friends over there .. i need more time to study .. coz i have droped alot .. i think is because of classmate .. they go out then i follow =P
if not i will still be with you .. i miss those life with you ... i never do my job =( sorry ... but no one contant me abt tt job .. == so i nv go church do duty .. am sorry ... and thanks for giving me two Good pastors .. and of cause leaders too !! ;D

i will always remember when i know you .. like how i know dingyuan . thats the gift tt u had given to me . he is a Good man for charlotte =P hehe ... life is not easy for me in ZHSS bt i have to try it up ...

tinghong is like me brother like that .. we got lot of thing abit alike n same == hahas .. he just like my brother .

brb

>,< sorry , bt i think i have to do tt

2009-10-22T07:24:00.000-07:00

i wanna to know him more .. i also wanna him to know me more ... i don wanna to argue wif him n also don wanna to do all this to him ... bt is better to end our friendship or others ... today ...

like wat pj said .. don i think of his feeling .. ?? maybe no .. coz now he also wun said anything le ... coz he had also agreed ... hope so ... i don care for you .. yeah i don ... actually i did .. so wat .. bt i have to do this .. coz it will be better ... to do it this way ...

i dng smth tt is very unfair ... -.- i know for sure ... bt is gd tt i will think properly ... stay wif God until a age for std ... or wait until 20 over == ..

nth more or less ... jux end it tmr .. when the last letter goes to you ... it will be better ... i wuld be crying tmr ..for sure -.-

bt we r getting very far away ... since i keep on argue wif u .. ya .. we really very far away nw ... i don think we will back to aug ... where by me look at each other smile until very funny like tt ...

like wat ur classmate said to me this morning .. he wun like u de la .. -.- i faster reply yeah ... i cn said yeah .. bt do my heart really think tt way ? nope i cn tell u ... bt u jux feel tt we wun get along wif each other long ==

maybe both of us should regrets it tt we both liking each other .. nt alot -- as a friend ==

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let take 3months for nt being friends cn ??? pls agree

^^

2009-10-21T08:58:00.000-07:00

so sian . tmr still gt school ... when is my sickness gng off ??? haix ... i feel so tired .. coz i sick lor .. -.- tinghong phone gt problem this few days . today jux ok .. cox he jux deleted 5000 msg in his inbox == lol ... i wait until 3000 jiu faster delete .. coz i know tt my phone for sure will lag... hahas. he today jux delete all ... so i know y sun or mon dy msg me . n ask me to help him to msg th .. coz he don wanna reply him .. dy like tt tell me .. == actually nt he don wanna reply .. is becoz of his lazy ... -.- hahas ... lazy to delete msg lo .. him .... ytd th reply my msg .. at 11plus . bt i doesnt on other phone == den morning wake up den reply him .. so i know y he nv reply my msg le ... today jux know tt his phone gt problem .. -.- lols ...

today . thanks joanne . for tt 6 miss call or else i wun wake up lo ... i sick den slp until 7plus den wake up .. coz joanne called me .. thank man ... or else i nv go for bball le ... but we go there don have training ... we having the basketball inter class games .. things .. we have to learn alot of things .. sian .. sit down for 3hour over there...

BASKETBALL INTER CLASS GAMES
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1E1 vs 1E6 0215pm or later -.-
--- vs ---
--- vs ---
1T1 vs 1E2 at 4 pm

it will be ended at 6plus or later than tt ==

lol.. gtg ... nites .. hope i cn win for inter class == ... bt is jux a games nt tt impt to me =) bt still must do my best -.- so tired .. tmr still gt school .. bye :D

tinghong rmb to delete ur inbox .. hahas ..
i really hope tt i am javier -.- .. coz ........ so thing ^^ hahas .. xiao xin yi dian

=.=

2009-10-20T09:43:00.000-07:00

hahas . laptop gng to low battery soon lor ... hahas.. nvm . i passed eng , math, sc bt nt CPA . sian lor ... hmmm ... chinese surely pass de. hahas. coz chinese very easy man ..

lol.. this few days i getting very far away to alot of thing ... my mind like ... blank after exam .. coz i sick .. nw still haven get well .. == haix .. keith go to malaysia . yup . no one fight wif me le .. hahas . good lor .. tmr gt bball . 9am to 12 am == sian .. very tired wan lor . -.- i don wanna go .. bt cant .. i need to eat more in morning . coz of bball == i don wanna eat lor .. i feel like sleep .. haix ya .. i cnnt type alot coz of the laptop . gng to low battery .. ==LoLs==

i gng back to church this or next week ..

y i don have usher ah ?
the SL nv msg me .. i scare tt jianming don let me be usher anymore .. coz he give my chance de lor .. == sry jianming .. SL nv msg or call me ==

coz i having exam so i didnt go church . have to study .. bt i don really study =P

Goodnight everyone .. gtg =) smile wif ur heart and walk wif jesus side by side

--Sorry--

2009-10-18T00:27:00.000-07:00

hahas ... sry .. ydy very tired so i donno wat i am typing also =P
hope u all cn understand my post ... == hmm...

18 Oct 2009

2009-10-17T10:01:00.000-07:00

omg .. today jocelyn msg me ask me to work !! == den i help her ask my friends to go help her ... alot don wan ... i sick den i also don wan .. bt she say nt enough ppl ... ask me to go pls .. den i ask avril , hong soon , yao zonng , wan xin , belmont , weihao (my cousin) .... they all ok ..

den i gt runing nose .. == this few days head also very pain .. den ytd nv go out , whole day sleep -.- LoLs ... in one min i used 3 tissue ... == maybe coz i went out wif yidian lor .. haiya .. he still use his basketball hit my head ... (thu) 5plus go he go home le .. den i don wanna join jj , an, shawn, eve thay all den i go home ... den nite time sick liao ... bt be4 all this happen i alrdy feeling sick on wed .. gd tt exam alrdy over or else i die == hahas .. joking la , wun die de .. hehe .. hahas.. hoho ... i jux gng crazy ....

Sry abit random -.- tt i suddenly change topic ==

haiya , today went to do the wat ice-cream work == so fun .. i bring two pack of tisses only .. ==

i tell u next time i wun go again .. i rather stay at hm also gt money take ^^ i only go for fun ... -.- i go until there den know .. is 6pm start .. 10pm end .. omg so late .. bt i don mind de .... bt wanxin cant ... avril also cant .. bt i help her to tell her mum tt i will send her back ltr .. == den her mum okok lor .. -.- lols rite? .......

bel , avril , wx , wh , me went to block 106 , 108, 109 ,111 earn $0 ==

bel n wx sell $10.50 At 107 (BS)

wh , avril , me $11 , $12 At block 110 (BS)

den after tt we anyhow walk until TY -.- hahas

bel , wx , wh , avril $10.50 , $10.50 , $11 , $11 (TY) den tt time i was resting -.- hahas ...

7 box - earn $76.50 - $38.50 = $38 / 5 ppl = $7.6<-- each ppl get ...

den suddenly christina call me say i give her $32.5 only .. bt alot of ppl saw i give her $38.5 ... den she have to pay herself the $6 == ..but end up i call her back ... say u pay $1 ..

den the rest we pay u back .. my cousin (wh) pass me$1 ... den i keep ... avril pass my bt i give her back coz is like i call her come down until so late den she only earn little bit -.- ...

i don dare to tell belmont n wanxin this thing also ... coz is like christina lose money nt us ... so them surely wun pay her de ... bt i gng to pay her $4 (me) + $1 (wh) ... coz they gt really work bt i don have .. n i call den come down until so late .. wx mum like very angry == so i don wan them to gain anything ... we don really earn bt we have alot of fun over there !! hahas ...

money is nt tt impt to me ... at least i have learn a lesson .. in this work ... although i gain more things inside -.- ... hahas .. n i still sick .. i still went out .. nw feeling tired only lor ... i gain money ... bt i earn christina as my friend == .. i earn the laugh for me fun ... i earn a lesson tt teach me nt to use money offen -.- all this fun time ..gt money also cnnt buy de !!!! @.@

School

-exam over super happy now ... bt i having a runing nose .. i hate it ... ==

-nov gng to have wild wild wet wif NT n NA ppl ...

-oct gng to basketball inter class games ...

-oct , nov , dec gt cca -.- so bored n tired

-nov dy coming to hogc for service == donno id real anot ..

-nov n dec church gng to lot of things on =)

- donno when go oversea (nt sure yet) =.= hope mum cn bring my go malaysia -.- i only wan to go there play .. for 3days ... den i wan play wif my friends n go church .. still gt smth have to do ==for pastors de !! hope i cn do finish tt things -.-

-outing wif cousin

-chalet (family) (nt sure yet)

- smth else cnnt say de .... (----) for school wan

-outing wif friends

-BBQ (nt sure yet)

-yeah !! avril n me gng to make cookie >< """ donno think ppl wif eat de -.-

-overnite at ECP wif cousin n friends (maybe)

-overnite at friends n cousin house == hoho

-go lan

-AND MOST IMPORTANTLY STILL HAVE TO STUDY !!!! HAHAS =)

- Overnite in church too !! hoho ... came wait untill 31/12/09

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-go out wif children =D

-take care baby ^.^

-Go ms peck house play !!! with children .. wahahhaha .... so many children loves me !! i loves them too !!! XD

-movie wif children

-movie wif CG

-CG meetings coming back ^^

Children hehe ... i wanna go th house there again to see jav. ^^ he really dam cute >< hehe ="x

btw i wun let my friend gain things de ^^

coz i loves them !!! i will always help girls be4 i help boys ><

rmb money is jux a non-living thing , bt friends r 4ever ..... friends also a living thing ... -.-

i really feeling unwell =.= hope tue cn be all rite ;D ...

i cn always rmb JOHN 3:16 -.- must rmb k ....

Faith - makes thing happen

Hope - possible

Love - love them nw or else is too late

Love God , Love Life , Love People

LG-becoz of him .. we r here , in this world

LL-if u don love ur life .. how could u even go love the ppl around u .. or ur loves one

LP-love ppl or else u regrets ltrs / love ppl around u or else is to late for it

I Am The Child Of God , Forever And Always =)

i wun throw him aside .. i will only keep my God deeply inside my heart ... ;)

he is the only one .. i live for ... == if nt becoz of ivan poh .. my old CGL i wun be so amazing rite nw ... if nt becoz this date 15/3/08 ... i wun be knowing God so well ... == Love you 4ever my lord n king ... my father in christ ... pastors u r also the one who makes my feel better to be in HOGC !! u r amazing pastor =) ...

i am who i am .... i cn still rmb tt songs ... one love , one life .. ,,, who am i , tt u wuld give ur life for me ... if i nv forget wrongly

Sorry i post all this nv even reread den post alrdy ... so if gt spell mistake or others ... pls forgive me .. thank you ... hope u enjoy it -.-

In The Name Of Jesus

Amen

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2009-10-14T04:15:00.000-07:00

hahas ..my n hth nth le lor ... == hahas ... i donno tt he will 4give me lor ...lols .. so happy ...

i don when cn i stop argue wif him!!!

i like chua ding yuan

2009-10-07T17:24:00.000-07:00

i very tired le in zhss ... maybe after eoy exam gng to change to bwss ... there i gt lot of friends .. but i donno y ... i don feel like gng there ... == .. i think i really cnnt give up him .... is nt easy to give up someone tt u like ... but i am trying .. n maybe i give up him ..den he will like the who ... rather than he like me .. den i also scare to lose my friend around me ... == ... from ytd hth nt my friend alrdy ... so sad .. he wun 4ever me de ... nbm ... bt NT ppl shoulder know Express ppl ba .. ==

i cried ytd n this morning .. n nw i don dare to see him le ... =.=''''

go home den edit

2009-10-01T18:24:00.000-07:00

hahas.. today exam very easy lor .. lol ...i argue wif him ytd .. den i cried ... so sad lor .. i don dare to lie to him tt i don like him ... i like him .. but i donno will he lie to me ??

omg .. this computer so scary ....;

r u really God here ?????????????????????????? omg i don wan use school computer again le .... this computer will type itself .. sim ee qq

==== Now I Having CE ====

2009-09-29T19:21:00.000-07:00

So boring ... mdn liang lesson ... yea ... ytd me , avril chat ^^ .... mummy go to malaysia ... for 3 to 4 days ... this few days ... super tired .. coz .. i need to go home early n do thing ... and i haven even study yet ... =.= today really gng to study for 3hour le like tt le ... tmr is english test ... i wan to cry le ... no la joking ... bt i hope tt i cn pass my eng n sc .... so bored now .... still need to do CE work ... sian lor .. i don like mdn liang .. no la joking ... hahas ...

tinghong gng to fail malay ... told me ytd .. next year he also not gng to study malay alrdy ... ... is a gd news ... coz he got 7 to 8 sudject =.= .... he don even understand the malay listening test lor ... blur king .. hahas ... his my good friend now ... hahas ...
Tinghong Good Luck For You !!! EOY EXAM ...

hahas ... i don dare to talk to him in school le ... <-- nt tinghong
u jeaous also no use .. me n th really only good friend .. u anyhow guess so much ... u gt 12 girlfriend leh ... jav. said de ^^ hahas ...
SO MANY GIRLFRIEND WOR ..... next time don talk to u le ... =.= angry le lor ...

Tinghong thank tt u nv spread our things out !!! == hahas ...... hahas ... me n him is only good friend .... he trust me .. i trust him .. hehe ...

i donno wat to say .. n i donno wat i trying to say to u ...
but i am sry to u ..coz i don believe u ... i don share wif u my feelings de ... i rather share wif th ... coz he will teach me wat to do !! >< hahas ...

my school so fun .. ... ^^

I like you ... nt th !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
huang ting hong don lead benjamin money again le !!

=.= Funny Life Wor =.=

2009-09-24T05:01:00.000-07:00

wa ... my life is getting more happy !!! coz i got avril ^.^ hehe .. and also joanne ... she play wif me like bullying .. but is nt .. hahas .. i loves the matter tt we play .. hahas ...

monday .. avril came to me house .. and we got but things ... hahas ... i cook ... she watch . ... den end up she also got cook smth .. tt i donno how to cook .. wa. she so zai .. hahas ... ily avril !!! XD
hahas .. and i wun cried again .. i wun be sad again .. coz of avril !!! xP ... hehe ... becoz of her .. my life getting more happy !!! =.~ yea man .. i love you ... i am so happy ...hoho ... yea .. yea ... yea ....

Huang Ting Hong ... u very zai hor ... no matter wat u scold me .. no nid to say sorry de lor .... den i pull ur hair only .. still need me to say sorry to u 20 time .... ytd i totally wrote on the paper 20 plus msg 20 = to 40 times sry .... but at least u got send me back the 40 times words back ... so nice of u .. O.o ... LoLs .... Thank You !! XD

he can really made me smile for nth ... =.=

yea .. i gng to undate the 2nd blog soon ^.^ gtg ..

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2009-09-19T21:10:00.000-07:00

hai ya , how i hope i can stop finding u into trouble ............. so sad lor .. but everytime i wan to stop some trouble , i will always rmb eoy maybe ... i really like u more than friend ..u also .. but urs is abit only lor .. i donno wat to do ... i wont regerts tt i like you ... i think maybe i too jeslour !!! X( Sorry

omg ... i have like nth to say .. but at nite surly gt alot of thing to say de ... ytd very late slp .. cousin lor ... 4 plus den i slp ... 6 plus wake up again (awhile only) 11plus wake up .. first thing update my thing .. exam is coming .. so i don think i will update blog le lor ... i think will but not everydays like tt xP .. hehe .. go do thing .. still got homework ... hahas gtg ... nite time sure update ... coz everynite i got lot of thing to update ... now i look so tired .. but nite time look like a cat ... gd tt i am nt like my sis .. pig !!! WAHAHAHA ... Phua zi ling is a pig !!!!! hehe

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2009-09-15T11:11:00.000-07:00

hmm .... i feel really sorry to him ... i shouldn't angry wif you in the first place ... maybe i really like u too much ... everytime when i do smth wrong ..u don really angry .. but now u only don wan to tell her tt u don like her ... i jealous until angry ... u so nice to me .. u care my feeling .. but coz of angry i forgot ur feeling ... .. sometime i jux wish tt u can happy ... but i am the one who make you feel unhappy ... u told me if i am not happy .. u will also not happy ... today i found out how much u mean to me and how much i mean to u ...

if ziying nv scold me .. i still will not open my heart n think ... she rite .. i nv stand at ur side n think ... i only think of myself in the first place ... since u don wan say ... den don wan say ... coz i will still like u if u don said to her !! ^^ and becoz u care for others feelings ... so tt u don wan say .. i don mind anymore .. coz as long tt u r happy .. i will also be happy ... u scare tt u hurt her ... so tt u don wan say ... is all becoz of ur cares to everyone ..

we only like each other abit .. but if anything happen .. i also donno whether will u help anot ... but i know tt u r 4ever 24/7 care for others .. be4 caring urself ... i am really wrong ><

so many months n days past .. i find out tt i not only like u abit .. i think soon i will love you ... coz of ur caring ... to everyone n me ... i really scare to lose u ... but i know .. if u don like me .. i will still be strong like now .. i give up WH , half is becoz of u ... half is becoz of WH n GC ... they r a lovely couple .. tt makes me think tt i should give up .. i use 1 month to give up ... end up i know tt u like me a bit .. i also like u abit ... we like stding .. but we r nt ... coz is too young n i don think u wan ... now study is most impt to me n u ... i will work harder to go NA ...

sometime i miss u ... sometime i regret ... but i think is becoz of i like you too much ... and keep on think tt maybe u will like her ... i scare to lose u ... but if is time to let it go .. i will let it go ... i will just wish u all the best ... and i will still smile ... if without u in my life .. is ok ...

but now u still like me the same .. i will still like u the same too !!! >.<>

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Now is a late time .. i still using computer ... aiya ... mummy nv scold me .. so good ... coz jux nw 5plus i slp until 9 plus .. xP ... like a pig .. hahas .. LoLs .... i abit tired le ... but i can say tt this few days ... i getting along with my classmate very well ... but i fail my SC n MT ... xP .. omg ... i should study more ... lol .... i wan to go NA leh .. but be4 go there n be4 exam come .. i must study ... 16 or 15 more days to Eng Teat .. O.o ... omg i haven learn Eng .. but i learning Maths alot .. lol ... i almost fail maths also ... i only get 62 mark ... omg first time get so low ... noemally i got 80 or above ... ... hai ya .. donno wat to do .. Lol ... Study Study Study ... as long tt i am houest ... i nv copy duing the CT 5 ... the chinese ....

btw if he don like me le .. i will still like him ^^ ... coz i really like him alot ... jux tt he is happy can le .... i will stay strong to my feelings ><>

I AM SORRY .... .... ....

IN THE NAME OF JESUS

AMEN